Dear Goodbye... [COMPLETED]

DIARY ENTRY #53

DIARY ENTRY #53

Dear Diary,

That's it. I still do have feelings for him, maybe ni hindi nga nawala at pinaglololoko ko lang ang sarili ko. But whatever. Wala namang sense naman.

Like I said sa last diary entry ko, I regret everything. And that's it. Hanggang regret na lang naman. Wala naman nang magagawa.

Eh ano nga kung gusto ko pa siya—kung mahal ko pa rin siya? It's not like he'll accept me in his life again once I confess. Hindi naman 'yun ganon kadali. Besides, there's a lot—as in a lot—of beautiful, amazing, understanding, smart, witty, and perfect girls that'll make him happier than I could ever make him.

Andaming babaeng mas deserve siya.

Kaloka naman, Lim is one of the closest to most amazing guys I have ever met. He's far from being perfect, he's got a lot of flaws. But... It's what makes him so amazingly unique.

Mayabang siya, mapang-asar, minsan napaka-insensitive, nakakairita siya, nakakabwiset but hey... beyond those things, he's actually really sweet, he knew how to make someone smile, minsan lang siya magsabi ng compliments pero alam mong totoo 'yun kapag sinabi na niya, he's actually understanding, and he'll tell you if you're wrong so you can try to be the better version of yourself. Also, he's pretty supportive.

Hindi lang naman 'yun 'yon eh. Matalino siya, mabait, may pangarap sa buhay, and hell, I could keep going on and on pero anong sense?

Jusko, Diary. Nababaliw na ako rito. I kept smiling while writing those but it always ends up as a sad one.

Hay nako! Basta, Diary. Ang alam ko na lang ay hindi ko na siya guguluhin. He deserves more—I'm still working progress so kapag ako ang end game niya eh for sure nasa less siya instead of more.

Oh well, I'll just keep on saying I'm attracted to tons of other guys para ma-distract ako at hindi ko na ipagpilitan yung sarili ko sa kanya.

Ayun lang naman, Diary. Babye na nga muna, inaantok na ako eh. Babye! Mwah!

Still a working progress,

Zoe