When Doctor Missy Mistry faces incredible losses and gets thrown a shitty lifeline but a lifeline nonetheless, she takes it.
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When Missy's parents disappear, she has nowhere to go, so she accepts the offer of a borderline insane women to marry h...
Julia and I are sitting on the sofa. I'm showing her my old workbooks and she's helping me put up some pages as mementos in my room.
I'd already put up the exert.
She finds another page and reads it out loud.
"Missy, in response to being asked what kind of love you want, you said: 'I want the kind of love where he'll sweep me off my feet. The kind that when I come home, he'll tell me he loves me. I want the kind of love that never fades and the kind of love that always puts a smile on my face. I want him to be kind, caring, affectionate, loving. I want to dance with him as much as possible.' That's really sweet." I nod at her words and scan and send it to the printer, I go to my wall and stick it up.
Julia goes home after a couple more pages of reading and I go back to my bedroom.
I read the page again and think about the dancing.
I went home crying at my wedding reception because I didn't get to dance with anyone, I thought that Rio and I would have our first dance but he never showed up to any of the dance rehearsals, not that I needed any. He said he was going to them at different times to me. I later found out he had just bunked off to go flirt with girls at a café down the street from the studio.
He didn't know how much it meant to me.
I'm lucky Julia didn't see my older writing.
There was a question where I was asked what my dream wedding was.
I said "My dream wedding would be a small occasion with the people I love the most, my mother, my father and my siblings. I'd want a big, beautiful, green ball gown dress and I'd want to dance with my husband all night long. I'd want to dance with dad as well, hopefully he'll like me and my ways then and I want him to walk me down the aisle. Hopefully Apollo can walk me down the aisle as well and Rylan and Lucaas can be the flower boys." I scan this one and print it as well.
I put it up and I sit on my floor and look at it.
It never happened.
My dad emailed me saying he'd never walk me down the aisle and that he wouldn't even think of asking Apollo or Rylan to attend.
Lucaas and my other siblings were in the system so they couldn't attend as they were still getting a placement.
I didn't even get the ring I wanted, which didn't have to be expensive, just a Claddagh ring.
I wore a traditional white gown and it was nice but it wasn't me but I didn't have anyone to go dress shopping with so I just ordered it off JJshouse.
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Rio obviously didn't dance with me so I had nothing on my wedding day.
The wedding was also big and flashy which I detested but I had no say in it.
I was devastated by the wedding.
I get up and sit by the window.
I look out and see Dhara and Rio. I wave at them and they see me but I leave the window before I can see if they wave back.
I get to the floor and rest my head on my knees as I rock back and forth, trying to comfort myself but I can't.
Dhara and Rio get into the house but I don't care anymore. He can do what he likes.
I go get something to eat from the fridge and go back to my room but I can't eat it.
I didn't feel well at all and I start to cry.
Someone knocks on the door and I ignore them.
"Hi?" It's Dhara.
I wipe my tears and pull off my covers and look at her.
"Hello." I say as I look her dead in the eyes.
"That was our last day together. I broke it off." She says and I nod.
"You guys love each other, why?" I say and she laughs.
"We don't love each other. I don't love him, he doesn't love me. We like each other because of the sex but you, he likes you. I'm sure of it. Sure he may have sex with other people but he never wanted the marriage either, that's him rebelling against what his parents put upon him. I know you'd don't agree either but you just don't rebel but that what makes you the better person is that you don't try to go out there and not intentionally but still hurt someone's feelings. I know it hurts, that's why I broke it off. I didn't realise he was married until you and Julia came here." She says and I nod.
"Why did he call you his girlfriend?" I ask and she frowns.
"I don't know why he did that. It was very stupid of him to do it, especially in front of his young and still impressionable sister. I'm not his girlfriend and never will be and everyone who's ever had a fling with him knows he's not on the market. You won't have anymore of us whores in the house to bother you. I hope this helps." I nod and thank her and she leaves.
I lie down the other way again and Rio enters and I ignore him completely trying not to cry again.
He really did hurt my feelings even if he wasn't aware of it.
He's so silent that I forget he's even there for a moment but when I hear the rustling of the paper, I know he's looking at the wall. It also had pictures of me from when I was an actual dancer. They were all poor quality selfies from when I'd take myself to independent dance comps.
"You like to dance?" He asks.
I sniffle. "Love."
"Why didn't we dance at our wedding?" He asks.
"You didn't go to any lessons." I say as I feel the tears run down my face.
"Oh right." He says and I sigh.
"Can you go away please?" I ask, kindly.
"Am I bothering you?" He asks.
"Yes." I respond.
"How? I'm just looking at your stuff. Getting to know you." He says and I get angry.
"We've been married for 7 fucking years and you never contacted me while I was away! I cannot even begin to fathom how you can pretend to be wanting to know me after all this time." I get up and push him out of the room.
