Part of Me
I love my fear... it reminds me to protect myself.
“Can you tell me what the hell is going on?”
It's like a white wall, I'm standing into it. My dad used to ask this question too. It was the most scariest thing I heard. I roamed my eyes inside this basement, seeing my teammates looking at me. I stood backward so that it will not be awkward.
“Where's Valerie fi—”
“You are going to kill yourself! I told you, be careful! Kung hindi ka nakita ni Death baka patay kana!”
I admit that I was wrong, I admit that I'm too stupid. Even his brother, nadamay ko. Ni wala man lang akong ginawa para maging safe siya.
“I do know everything Marissa. 'Wag mokong ma tignan ng gan'yan. Everything was fine not until you made that boy buy something! Ano ba?!”
Napayuko ako. Is it my fault? Na nagcecrave ako? I don't know, parang ang tanga tanga ko talaga sa part na 'to. The boy will never be able to suffer if I get selfless.
“Sorry Sir,” I whispered.
Napaatras ako ng may biglang kumuryente sa tenga ko. I looked at my hand and I saw something sparkling at nilagay ko ito sa paa ko at hinabol at natamaan ko 'yon.
I looked at Ice when he sighed. “Look at what you did.”
Napatingin ako sa tinuro niya. I saw Bree and Death in the monitor and he looks anxious at the same time madly looking at the beer infront of him. Parang down na down siya.
“Ang tanga mo kasi.”
I looked at Debbie when she spoke. “Don't you get it Marissa? Hindi na tayo bata para maglaro! You are wasting everything, lahat ng pinaghirapan mo, ginagawa mong tanga yung sarili mo! I hope you'll understand what we've been through too, hindi yung ikaw lang palagi, hindi yung sarili mo lang ang iniisip mo,” she tsked, before leaving.
Yumanig ang sakit sa puso ko. Do I deserve the hate?
Yes, maybe I do.
“I'm sorry, I'm sorry if I did and was going to waste everything. And yeah, I'm stupid.”
Everything was in it's fire blaze when I'm not yet here. I hope I'll realize it soon. Because I found him, running through my mind.
“Do your fucking work easy, or else I'm the one to kill you,” Debbie said.
Napatingin ako kay Jigs at inaasahan ko siyang tutulungan ako, pero yumuko lang siya. I'm so lonely.
Narinig ko ang mga yapak nila palayo sa akin. I heard something on the screen, making me look into it. Fuck, it's Death.
“Kuya no!”
I held my hands when it started shaking, tapos hindi ko na namalayan na nawala na pala ako sa tamang katinuan hanggang sa mawalan ako ng malay.
I woke up in a chair. Saktong pag tingin ko ay nasa paligid ako na puno ng rosas. I saw red roses. Nagsisimbolo ito ng kamatayan, death, or war na naglalabas ng mga dugo. Is this a dream?
Napatingin ako sa kabilang parte ng mata ko, someone's standing there and I can see light beside him. “I hate to admit...” he said before strumming his guitar.
“I miss you so bad...”
I held his shoulder making that someone to look at me. Nagulat ako nang blurred yung mata niya, “Hi Beautiful... are you okay?”
“Damn, who are you?”
That sweet smile suddenly stopped working, and it's now a smirk. “I'm your greatest nightmare, your killer.”
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ActionMafia Leaders/ Agents story 🌷 Battlebetweenlove#2 Battle, they fight for the rights. Between, love and themselves. Love, sacrifices oneself to prove everything. The Battle, begin. She's working her way to the top the only way a woman can in this bu...
