A Heart of Truth (Book 2 in the Heart of Series)

16

Two days...

It had been two days since I seen Kuroo. It had been nearly a month since I went to school. After getting discharged, I decided that I didn't want to go back to school.

I was scared but everyone around was more than happy to help me out. Yamamoto would bring home some homework pages for me to study while Kuroo would sometimes spend the night over.

I had bad days...I had better days..but had I had happy days? I hadn't had a happy since Kuroo left.

Since Kuroo left for college, I had been trying my hardest, but of course I failed. I failed at making myself feel flappy.

I didn't deserve to be happy. I was needy, I need Kuroo and he wasn't here. It had been two days since he spent the night and here I was, wanting him back with me.

I knew that it was effecting him, the way that he purposely avoided talking about serious things or himself.

The way that he had never looked at me in the eyes. The way that he was short tempered and took it out on others.

I knew that I had been hurting him. But, everyday, I try harder. I try harder to hold his hand or to brush our shoulders together.

I tried but in the end, Kuroo had left me.

Its been two days since Kuroo left for Uni. But a month since I've went back to school.

Three weeks...Time passed since Kuroo left for Uni again, but not once did he text me after the first three days.

Maybe he had been too busy, or maybe he realized like I did, that we wouldn't work out.

My phone buzzed, making me look at it. It was a text from Kuroo. A text in three weeks.

Hey, Kenma -Kuro

Kuro, hey -Me

Uh, how are you feeling? -Kuro

Better, yeah...I'm okay -Me

That's good, uh, we should talk -Kuro

Oh..Okay.. -Me

I just...I love you so much Kenma, you know that right? -Kuro

Yeah, of course- Me

And you also know that I wouldn't do anything to hurt you, no without reason..-Kuro

Just say it, Kuro- Me

I just, I'm sorry...we just both need this space- Kuro

Okay..- Me

I put my phone down slowly, staring off into space.

Am I allowed to cry?  Am I allowed to be hurt when I was the one who caused this?

Was that being selfish on my part?

It didn't matter...I cried..I cried so much that day. I cried because Kuroo had left me.

Though it wasn't a surprise, I was still surprised that he did it. I was expecting it, I ruin everything after all.

It's been two years, two years since Kuroo left me. It's been two years since I came back home.

I wasn't necessarily missing home but I would love to go back to my old room. I graduated high school and recently moved into a dorm for college.

It was nice, kind of refreshing in a way, but what I didn't like, was the fact that my roommate was someone that I knew.

I didn't notice until I walked into the room but, Hinata stood there, gloves in his hand, staring wide eyed at me.

"Kenma!" He smiled, pulling me into a hug without touching me.

"Hinata, I didn't know you were attending this college." I smiled softly, hugging him back.

"Yeah, I got a scholarship." He smirked, as he pulled back and looked back into the mirror that was on the closet door.

"Do you know how to dye hair?" He asked. I nodded as he gave me a pair of gloves.

"I just want to dye the back, I'm supposed to be matching with Yamaguchi." He mumbled, giving me the black mixture.

"Oh? Can I do it too?" I asked, dipping the brush in it before grabbing a piece of his hair.

"Sure, but what color?" He asked.

"Hmm, I'm probably gonna go natural in the back and keep the yellow near the front." I whispered, leaving the roots for last.

"Maybe you should go silver or blue this time." Hinata smirked as he looked at me through the mirror.

"Definitely not." I chuckled nervously, getting another piece of hair.

"Oh, I've been meaning to ask," Hinata trailed off, looking down at his hands. I said nothing, waiting on him to finish.

"What happened with you and Kuroo?" He asked, finally looking up at me.

I froze, his name making me think back to the past. I slowly let go of his hair, letting my arms fall to my side.

"Kenma?" Hinata whispered, turning back to face me. Tear clouded my vision but I refused to let them fall.

"Nothing...w-we just decided that it was better if we...e-ended things." I whispered, turning him back around before grabbing another piece of hair.

"Kenma, you're crying..."Hinata whispered, looking at me with a frown through the mirror.

I quickly wiping the stray tear that fell before forcing myself to give him a smile. "I'm fine, really." I mumbled, continuing to work my magic on his hair.

After a while, I decided to go out and look for something that me and Hinata could eat on for dinner.

I stuffed my hands in my pocket as I looked at the menu that was propped on the counter. "Could I just get two chili dogs?" I asked kindly.

"Of course sweetie." The lady smiled, heading to the back. I bit my lip and stepped off to the side.

Sighing lightly, I looked around the place. "Kenma?" I heard someone whisper softly. I turned around quickly before pausing.

Wait...no no...this can't be happening...

Why is he here?? How...how is he..?

"Kenma, calm down-"

I pushed past him, running to the nearest bathroom. I slammed the stall door shut before sliding to the floor, crying harshly into my knees.

"Uh- excuse me? Are you okay?" I heard someone ask from outside of the stall.

I knew that voice..

"Oh, sorry..You don't have to say anything." He chuckled nervously.

How..?

"I-It hurts..." I whispered, slowly sitting up.

"....what-what hurts?" He whispered quietly.

I let out a breath before bitting my lip harshly. "My chest.."

IM LITERALLY CRYING-

That's it! That's the end!

For readers from the first book, that ending is like- nostalgic because that was one of their first meetings-

Anyway, I'm still thinking about a book 3 but I don't know lol-

Anyway, thank you guy so much for supporting me even when I wasn't active!

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