A Heart of Truth (Book 2 in the Heart of Series)

14

Kenma's POV

Kuroo had been sitting beside me the whole time during my checkup. Not saying anything, just being by my side.

I liked it that way, I didn't want to talk to anyone, I just wanted to feel that someone was there for me.

Here I go again with being dramatic...

"Kozume, you have to listen to me, okay? I won't be able to do anything for you if you don't talk to me." The doctor sighed for the fifth time.

I didn't dare to look up at him, I was scared too, maybe he didn't understand . I frowned and bit my lip, hating the feeling of being trapped.

"Um....sir, how about we do this some other time? This is really rude of you to be forcing him to talk about something that just happened." Kuroo mumbled.

I felt myself smile softly, feeling the butterflies in my stomach. The doctor quickly closed his mouth and excused himself from the room, leaving me and Kuroo to ourselves.

I glanced over at Kuroo, seeing that he had been looking down at his hands. I bit my lip, wanted to hold him, but knew that I couldn't.

At least not by myself...

"Kuro..." I whispered, making him quickly look up at me.

"Hey.." He smiled, slowly standing up and walking up to the bed. I swallowed and hesitated before slowly moving my hand towards him.

He followed my every move, before reaching out for my hand to rest into his. I held my breath as our hands touched.

I let out a quiet breath, blocking out any thoughts that were in my mind. I smiled softly, closing my eyes as our hands rested on the bed.

"I'm sorry..." I whispered, frowning as more thoughts pushed their way into my mind.

"No...you shouldn't be guilty for what happened..I will love you the same either way.." He whispered.

His grip on my hand tightened, making me panic slightly. I jerked my hand away from his, making him slowly inhale.

"Sorry..." I sighed heavily, covering my eyes in defeat.

"Ken Ken..don't-"

I whined and covered my ears, the memories of when he called me that suddenly coming back to me.

"Stop it...." I whispered, shaking my head slightly.

"Hey, hey I'm sorry...My mistake..it's okay, it's just you and me.." He sadly smiled.

I let my arms hug my knees close to my chest again, wanting the warmth of them again. "You and me?" I whispered, glancing up at him.

"Yeah, just you and me Kenma. It'll always be just you and me." He smiled softly at me.

I nodded closing my eyes as I rested my head on my knees. "Sleepy? Who am I kidding, you must be sleepy." He huffed.

"Mm." I hummed, letting myself relax with knowing that Kuro was here.

"Okay, get some rest, okay?" He hummed. I quickly opened my eyes, frowning slightly.

"You're leaving?" I asked, immediately feeling my chest get slightly heavier, with the knowledge of him leaving me again.

What if something else happens like that...

He won't be here to help me...to save me...to-

"Hm? Oh no, I'm just gonna go and get you some stuff, okay? I won't take long.." He murmured, getting up from his seat.

No..Don't leave..

I wanted to reach out for his hand as he turned away but was hesitant.

Do it Kenma. Grab his hand.

I reached out but remembered what he told me.

He'll be back..it won't take long..

I bit my lip harshly as the door closed. I felt the tears well up in my eyes and I made more effort to stop them from falling.

Stop it. Stop being so dramatic. Your body reacted to it and it was obvious that you liked it.

So stop playing victim. You're not a fucking victim. You're an attention seeker. Dramatic. Selfish.

Just suck it up. No one cares.

I harshly scratched my arms, over and over again. I inhaled and exhaled, trying to calm myself down.

"Stupid...stupid... stupid stupid..stupid.." I cursed myself over and over again. Feeling my body become more and more exhausted as I went on with my thoughts.

I whined quietly, biting my lip as I waited for Kuroo to come back.

He never did.

Heyy, I'm terribly sorry for the short and late chapter.
I haven't been the busiest but the book is so hard to write😩😩
I'll try my best to finish it quickly and make longer chapters as soon as possible

Bye