Bucky and Y/N

Chapter 13

As you walked around the compound watching Willow run after a ball that she had found, your hand was intertwined with Bucky's metal one; you thought of all the things you were going to do this week and what had happened to change to upset your plans.

Bucky - darling?!

Y/N - *snapping out of your thought* yes...

Bucky - what are you thinking about?

Y/N - everything that's happened over the last few days. From finding out about you to you getting hurt cause I have a past. It's just all hit me.

You look at him as tears roll down your face.

Bucky - I do not blame you for me getting hurt. I wanted to go.

Y/N - but still, it is my fault kinda. Do you think I should be in there helping?

Bucky - do you want to be in there?

Y/N - I feel useless. I don't have a place here. I am not an Avenger like you. I have no powers! Also, l, I have caused so much damage already.

Bucky - *interrupting you* you didn't answer my question. Do you want to be there?

Y/N - Yes... No... I just want to help somehow, but I am not sure how.

Bucky - Okay, well, you can go and see Steve and Tony. Talk to them. Listen to all they have to say. We all want to protect you. I am happy to train with you. I hear that you are pretty skilled...

Y/N- You would train with me?

Bucky - I would be happy to train with you... Invite Steve and Nat to make it a couples workout session.

Y/N - Okay... But just to let you know, I might still have my skills, but I am not as fit as I used to be.

Bucky - you seemed fit last night... *winking*

Y/N- BUCKY!

Bucky - I am just saying that you are stronger and fitter than you think. Come on, let's go in and see if they have found anything.

Y/N - okay... if they haven't, can we go to the library?

Bucky - absolutely

You walked into the lab hand in hand to see Nat, Steve, Bruce and Tony all working on different computers. They all turned to the door as you entered.

Tony - Ah, just the girl I was looking for. *wide smile on his face*

Y/N - what have you found? *concerned*

Steve - last night's footage shows a man we don't recognise.

Nat - we were hoping you might know him.

Y/ N - show me what he looks like.

She turns her screen to face you, and you walk closer. The man you saw was someone who you knew. Someone who had brought you pain in a past life.

Y/n pov

Seeing his face, remembering the torture, the screams. The chair I and so many were chained to. I felt my knees hit the lab floor as tears came crashing down. I look up to my uncle, who is slowly coming to kneel before me. I then felt a cold hand touch my back, stroking it up and down. Bucky was beside me. They said nothing and allowed me to gain composure.

Tony - whenever you are ready, we are here for you.

Y/N - his... his... name is Christopher Williams

Tony - How do you know him?

Y/N - England... Red... Training... he would...

I couldn't say it. My vision went blurry. The only thing I could hear was the muffled voices of Tony and Bucky. Then I felt Bucky's two temperature hands hold me and pick me up. Taking me to my room where he lay me down, covered me up and lay behind me. I felt Willow jump up and nestle herself near me. Nothing was said. He just let me cry, sleep, and lie on the bed. I slowly drifted to sleep, feeling the comfort and safety of where I was.

I felt a warm hand rub against my arm, and I slowly blinked my eyes to see Tony kneeling at the side of the bed.

Tony - Hey, how are you feeling?

Y/N - Tired.

Tony - okay, well, Bucky is downstairs making you something to eat

Y/N - okay... I am sorry

Tony - for what?

Y/N - not being helpful

Tony - you have been so helpful. We have a name and his background. That is more than enough.

Y/N - I want to help more, but the memories of what he did to me... to so many of us... it hurts too much.

Tony - I know you, and I know you will help in any way you can. Maybe you can start by designing and making your own suit? Get into training again. I can have Nat help you out. Nat can also help with the trauma... she went through something similar.

Y/N - I know... and really, you would let me design a suit?

Tony - of course, you have Stark brains. If you can think it, it can be done. You can create anything.

Y/N - thank you, Tony.

Tony - Anything for my favourite niece.

Y/N - I am your only neice

Tony - that doesn't mean you aren't my favourite.

We both chuckled, and then there was a knock on the door.

Tony - come in...

The door opened, and Bucky had a tray of food, tea, and a small jar with some flowers.

Bucky- hey, I thought you might want something to eat. Steve and Nat will take Willow for a walk, and I have already fed her...
Y/N - Bucky... Breath. *interrupting him* put the tray down on my desk and get your butt over here!
You saw Tony roll his eyes.
Tony - I am going to go... Call me if you need me.
Y/N - thanks, Tony and I'll see you in the lab tomorrow to go over suit designs
I watch as Tony kisses me on the top of my head and walks out of the room. I then turn and see Bucky grinning widely.
Y/N - what?
Bucky - You're talking about suits, getting along with Tony... You are starting to sound like an Avenger...
Y/N - I need time, and training, then I might start to be an Avenger.
Bucky - As long as that means you will be here for a while, I don't mind.

He gets on the bed and leans over, kissing your lips softly.

Bucky - now you do need to eat.. *grabs the tray of food* then I would like to chat with you about something...

Y/N - okay but I'm scared now. Can we talk then eat?

Bucky - okay but I want you to stay calm.

Y/N - okay... now I'm really worried...

Bucky - can you tell me about Christopher?

Y/N - no. *I didn't want to talk, think or mention his name again* I need time...

I looked at Bucky's face and he softly smiles kisses on my temple and hands over the tray. We sat there nibbling on snacks he brought in. I thought about how I could tell the team what happened and then it hit me.

Y/N - babe! Can you go get...