Feel ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo ---- [BOOK 2]

17 - Trophy

Katsuki's POV:

When classes were over, I lingered around the building for awhile, just walking around pretending like I had somewhere to go. I didn't want to return to the dorms, alone again. It was so much colder and darker. Empty.

I didn't want to go back.

I walked through the halls upstairs, just wandering mindlessly. I stopped in front of the large windows and turned that direction, standing there and watching students file out of the school below. I swayed back and forth a bit and my eyes kept closing on their own. It felt like I was on the verge of collapse, even though I was only standing still.

I haven't been sleeping right

I've been stressing too much

I need to watch my stress levels

Or I'll have another seizure

Damnit Todoroki

I'm physically in pain

It hurts

Everything hurts

I've never experienced this before

Is it depression?

Emptiness?

Just plain exhaustion?

Whatever it is

I need to get rid of it

I need it to stop

I clenched my fist and took a deep, shaky breath.

"You okay there?" I heard echo from across the empty hall. Aizawa walked towards me.

"Yeah. Why?"

He walked over and stood next to me, looking out the window.

"Because school ended thirty minutes ago and you're still here."

"That doesn't mean something's wrong. I just have nothing better to do."

"Hm. I see."

I rubbed the back of my neck and adjusted the collar of my blazer.

"You know it's getting hotter outside. Might wanna ditch the blazer soon." He said. I knew he was analyzing my behavior to see if I was hiding anything. After Todoroki, I can't blame him. But I wasn't gonna cave.

"I know right?" I said casually, "Summer is coming soon."

"Yeah. " He said, still looking at me suspiciously. "How's Todoroki doing?"

A pain filled my chest and I suppressed all my emotions, biting my lip until I tasted blood.

"Fine." I said, almost bitterly.

"I haven't seen him around."

Tears welled up in my eyes.

"Yeah, weird." I turned away and began walking down the hall.

"Bakugo. Come back." He said. It was like he was just waiting for me to break.

"I have shit to do. Bye." I spat, not looking at him.

"Hang o-"

"I said bye." I ran down the stairs, wiping my eyes, and left the school building entirely.

I didn't want to go back to the dorms, so I decided to go to the gym instead. As I walked through town, I kept glancing beside me instinctively. Regardless of how many people were on the streets, I was still alone. Painfully alone.