Feel ---- Suicidal Todoroki x Bakugo ---- [BOOK 2]

54 - Burn

Before this chapter starts, if you like this story you should read my newish Tamaki Amajiki fanfic. I like the way I wrote it better than this one, plus the chapters are longer (about 2500-3500 words average, but the latest chapter was 7200 words lmao)

anyways thanks 🤪✌️

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Todoroki's POV:

I hung up on Katsuki, my hands shaking a bit as I handed my phone back to the doctor. She noticed my uneasiness.

"You alright?"

I quickly collected myself, not wanting to show any negative emotions that came from that interaction.

"Yeah. I just miss him." I smiled half-heartedly as I picked at my lunch, suddenly losing my appetite.

I feel bad that I can't be there for him

Maybe I should leave the hospital already

I have made a lot of progress

I'm not completely better

But I don't want his mental health to suffer because of me

He sounded drunk or something

I mean he doesn't drink

But he was definitely distracted

He was crying when we hung up too

Or more so trying his best not to

Damnit...

I hope he's okay

Trying to seem as normal as possible, I ate a few bites of my food to avoid the doctors being suspicious of me. If they sensed my worry, they might reconsider letting me have connections to people outside.

When I was done with my food, the doctor gestured for me to get up and exit the room. I sat there a bit confused for a moment, but my brain caught up after a few seconds.

Oh yeah

I have therapy

Damnit

I know it's probably better for me

But still

It's exhausting

Healing is exhausting

But as much as I need Katsuki

I need this too

Hopefully when I get back, he won't have to worry about me as much

I know I won't ever fully heal from my past

But as long as I'm not too self destructive anymore

I should be okay

I'll probably always be depressed

And I'll probably never fully understand social situations

And I'll probably still have bad days

I'll probably have PTSD episodes for the rest of my life

But at least it won't be constant anymore

So he won't have to constantly make sure I'm okay

If I can take away my self destructive habits

Then the rest should become a bit easier to manage

For him and for me

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