Exploring The Bond,Within (Completed)

8. Nightmares and Conversations, Unseen, Untold.

As he woke up in utter shock and panting heavily, his eyes immediately fell on her, who was smiling with her eyes stuck in her mobile phone, as she saw Shiva woke up and pant heavily, she calmly asked, "Kya hua...koi bura sapna dekha kya?"...he immediately stopped gazing her and fumbling he answered "Voh voh kuch nai hua bas pyaas lagi thi...aur tu...tu kya kar rahi hai sona nahi hai??...oh haa tere padhe likhe dosto se baatein kar rahi hai hogi na...galti hogai disturb kardia tu continue kar"....he sounded rude, he can see her smile fall and eye going wet instantly after his statement like this, she looked hurt, she gulped and just replied, "Kuch bhi mat bol agar tujhe pata nahi toh"; he shrugged, he knew there was no point in arguing with her at this hour and especially when she was in this condition, he got up and came near to her bed to drink water, he drank from it and while pouring water down, he saw her phone gallery opened, in it there were their candid photos as well as the selfie she had taken before their marriage and even reception pictures, and a thought struck him, was she looking at their photos, why?...was she missing them being together, and what did he do...instantly said things about her, and now he was overwhelmed where he just realized as she snapped at him and screamed his name loudly so that he could get his senses back; the glass was over and water felling down, "Dhyan kaha tha tera???"she said, and again with a fumbling tone he replied, "Voh...kuch nai".

After this, there was obviously no sleep left for him and thus, he decided to sit on the chair and stare the clock for a while, she was now listening to songs, earphones tucked in her ears and swaying with the tunes and while swaying she got attention of him staring at the clock, utterly puzzled with thoughts unknown or maybe she knew what he was thinking, she thought of starting a conversation but instead she took out one bud of earphone and put that in his ears; his eyes shifted to her instantly and his face a little shocked, as his hand went near his ears to adjust the earphones, their hands brushed a little, their gazes met yet again and she smiled a little; the songs were retro, the ones they've been listening since childhood...after a while, she felt asleep sitting with support and as he realized that she was sleeping but the song was still going on he took out earphones from his ear and then stopped playing the music from her phone, where yet again he saw her both wallpapers of their photos, he gently tucked out bud from her ears, and as if she was so brittle, she woke up...she looked at him, who told her to sleep again but she refrained from the same...as he knew she won't sleep now and to her rest was very important, he said, "Tera kuch nai hosakta, jaag ullu jese, mai ja raha hu sone", and this time too she held his hand and replied, "Mujhe pata hai Shiva...tujhe neend nahi aayegi, itna toh jaanti hi hu na mai tujhe...haina?...acchha agar tujhe letna haina toh ek kaam kar mai side hoti hu yahi pe baju mein aaja mai bethungi", she said that and before he could have replied, she immediately tried shifting her body to the end of the bed and she was so fierce she stumbled and before she would have fallen down but he instantly put one hand on her shoulder and held her hand with the other, and they shared eye-contact, they were so close, their nose touching each other and they felt each other's breath, he pulled and shifted her back gently...he distanced himself and said, "Tere dimag mein kya bhusa bhara hai?kuch karne se pehle sochti bhi hai ya ese hi shuru hojati hai,chipkali kahi ki!" And what effect did she had of him scolding her like this, a tear rolled down her cheeks, and another tear fell...how her heart had fluttered and skipped a beat listening to his scold, after seeing how he still cared so much and most importantly, by listening "CHIPKALI"....and as he saw tears rolling down her cheeks, he just wiped them away gently resulting his palms caressing her cheeks, she was so emotional but she gupled down and her lips smiled a little, as his eyes were still searching something in her eyes, he looked too cute to him and that is when she remembered what she was going to say...yes, she liked him; she wanted to stay with him...but firstly she wanted to clear out things and before he could move away, she just said, "Baatein karega mere saath?"...he would have easily denied but didn't his heart too craved for something like this, and didn't he himself had wanted to spend more time with her, but his insecurities had stopped him then and now too but then how long was he going to stay away, somewhere or other even he wanted to talk out and even he knew that no one would have understood him better like she did...

As he sat on the chair, there laid an awkward silence and both didn't knew how to start a conversation now....and he had been restless to talk but now when he was actually asked too he had no idea how things would go so instead he thought conversating in silence, and she...herself had no idea how to initiate because ofcourse, she had told him to talk; she chuckled a little on which he looked her with a little questionable eyes, so she said, "Yeh kaha pohoch gaye haina hum Shiva, pehle waqt kaha nikal jaata tha ekdusre ko chidhane mein aur ladhne mein aur ab khamoshi bhi chubhti hai aur shabd khi gaye..", indeed what she said was true but he thought to himself but being so reluctant that he shrugged and said, " yeh kya talli murjhaye aashiq jesi baat kar rahi...badi aai baat karne aadhi raat ko baatein karni hai par kya yahi nahi pata"...she frowned and pouted upon this and thinking of a topic to talk about.

He had been holding back this question but now he couldn't he just couldn't...as he remembered that she had asked of whereabouts of her mangalsutra and her sindoor to be applied when Dhara had came, and also didn't she took sindoor with her as one of the most important things so he tried to make it look as if it was just a casual question, though it was not; he said, "Yeh tune abhi tak sindoor aur mangal sutra kyu pehen ke rakha hai?"

Finally...a reality check she had been fearing off, and she knew this question would come from but she just expected her masi or anyone else but Shiva...she was not at all expecting that from him, it was like someone made her stand in extreme afternoon scorching sun and had taken her life's most difficult viva there, she had no idea, sweat had covered her temple now...as she was about to answer, she felt him, he gently swiping the sweat from her temple; she said fumbling, "Voh mai...voh mai nikalna bhul gai thi..." and looked away, to which he instantly said smirking, "Chal juthi, agar galti se hota aur agar bhul gai hoti toh fir wapas kyu maanga pehenne ke liye"..she had no answer, "Matlab ki baat kar Shiva" looking annoyed, "Mere naam ka mangalsutra aur mere naam ka sindoor aur mera matlab kese nahi?",

"Shiva tujhe bhi pata hai aur mujhe bhi mujhse rishte nahi tode jaate, khaas karke jab voh...dil ke..." she stopped in the middle and wasn't she about to blabber her heart out and say "khaas kar dil ke sabse nazdik ho aur dil ke rishte ho", to which he somewhat felt guilt-ridden and looked away instead.

Talking about random and awkward things the whole night had spent now and it was since ages they had talked like this, even if they had to change the topic from middle, they had been successful in getting instances of what the other was feeling. She asked him, "Tune kya sapna dekha tha abhi?", and now, he got the question he was wanting she would not ask him, but she did..and he just wanted to avoid it so said, "Abhi kaha soya tha jo sapna aata..tere sath ullu banke betha hu?"..."Shiva jab tu utha toh uthne se pehle kya dekha...thik 1ghanta aur 39 minutes soya tha tu maine dekha tha phone mein..."

"Voh voh maine dekha ki....voh tu yaha thi...aur tu...tu...kuch nai...apne kaam se kaam rakh, mujhe nahi batana tujhe kuch...bohot baatein karli ab mai sone ja raha hu tu bhi soja..." his eyes got teary and gulped as he completed the sentence.

She watched him in disbelief, shocked, somewhat she had understood he had dreamt of maybe loosing her, and she had nothing to say, she could have even argued him back like he did with their same "Kaam se kaam, aur matlab, mera tera..." stuff but all she did was patted his cheeks went near him, though in pain leaned a little and placed a kiss on his cheeks, and he in utter shock, watched her in utter stupefaction, she chuckled on watching him like that...

Also, the lockscreen was 'Pre Shadi scene when Raavi came to pandya niwas and Shiva had held her, the one before the pearl necklace gets stuck and broken'

Homescreen was 'Raavi's birthday the dance when she twirled around like hitted her, he made her twirl again and they danced like a fairytale, her back toching his torso, their eyes sharing a lovely gaze'.