Exploring The Bond,Within (Completed)

11. Conclusions & Beginnings

As she said, "Nahi Shiva, esa bolke yeh sab mere liye aur mushkil mat bana please...", he watched her in utter amusement that how did she came to know what he was going to tell her and yet she answered it with utter confidence as if she had peeped into his heart and yes, she did understood him perfectly....and he had failed in understanding her..he thought to himself. But it was him, he had been getting dwarf-sized gestures of her being important which brought him clarity, for the first time it seemed that his tangled thread of insecurities getting resolved so he gently smiled and replied, "Aur tu kehti hai tu mujhe samajh nai paayi, esa nahi hai....samajh toh mai nahi paaya, na tujhe, na khudko." This statement startled her a little but she felt good as he said that she understood him, she felt a little happy inside but still...she refrained from expressing that atom of happiness and reassurance which his statement gave birth within her.

The taxi door opened, the time had come where again they would go back to being separated; neither of them wanted nor did they expressed, even if their hearts cried and yearned they stuck to being reluctant, as she shifted her body near the taxi door and stretched her left hand to take support of door and before she could stand up, he instantly clenched her right hand, her whole attention got fixated on the hand which he held and then on his face, which was looking worried, worried for her...he said, "Tu...tu dhyan rakhna apna aur tere yeh mattar size ke dimag ko aaram dena pata chala mattar jese pichak gaya...toh mera..." and her eyes widened as he said, "mera.." so he as if twisting his words, he continued, "Mera matlab hai ke dimag ki yaadash chali gai ya tu comma...kuch nai, dhyan rakhna apna...agar kisi chiz ki zarurat ho to Krish ya bhabhi ya gaumbi milne aaye tab bata dena..." and he ended his talk with a little smile. To which he sensed a feeling of anxiety and concern so she smirked and asked, "Kyun tu nahi aayega milne?"...and boomm he had to answer which prima facie he won't even if he would be restless enough to keep pacing around...he replied, "Mai...mai...mera pata nahi mai dukan sambhalunga.....tu...tu apna dhyan rakhna", she smiled a little, pressed his hands which had a firm grip giving him a signal of indication, she moved out.

She started walking, before she could enter the house, she looked back, he was still gazing her when the taxi started moving and eventually it left. She felt a sudden void in her heart, she knew what it was for, ignoring it as she entered the clock stroke 1pm and by the time she settled herself in her room and had her lunch...it had been 1:39pm after taking medicines, she laid down to rest..she was gazing the ceiling thinking about if he had lunch or not and what would he be doing and slept in that chain of thoughts...On the other side, he was in the store but was growing more and more restless, it was 1:39pm, past 39minutes it was her medicine time...he thought if she had her lunch or not and if she had taken her medicines or not, he kept opening her contact and was confused whether he should call or text?...on one hand, he wanted to behave as if he was the last person who would care or be concerned but in reality, even the 39minutes had been difficult for him...and he himself knew that she had conquered him now and his thoughts were under her shadow, he kept thinking about her...finally he texted her to ask if she was okay and if she had taken medicines and food..did she eat?...after sending the message now he was restless to see her reply and as the seconds passed and she gave no reply but it showed seen...so pissed he decided to call now.

He called her...and here she was sleeping peacefully, though disturbed but thinking it was alarm she just slept again after pressing power button. He called her again and yet again, but when she didn't pick up...he felt bad, defeated, though he wanted to go meet her but now he stopped himself, and again he

saw it all ending, as if that was the end...it was all his fault, only if he had not sent her papers or not behaved and said those words, those poisonous words were pricking him to the pain he wasn't able to express...he gulped and murmured, "Shiva samajh ja, kuch kisson ke hisson ki kabhi subah nahi hoti..."before he would think anything more, the phone rang and it was her who was calling him, he picked up because still for him her health was important and she was too atleast more than his insecurities, no matter what he could never stop caring for her. Since their childhood, he had been ended up protecting her sometimes knowingly, sometimes unknowingly.