All of it happened in a friction of seconds and it seemed as if the truck might had lost the break control and the truck then tumbled after hitting her and fell down making a large noise which indeed echoed; but as the rain god wept his tears and the droplets of water fastened he was shocked; his mind went blank as he saw her body laid down on the wet road, as the fresh cuts opened, raw blood started oozing out making its way like a stream does amidst of stones and gravel..he watched the scene in disbelief and as if the time around them had stopped, his mind went blank, his heart utterly shocked, and he himself numbed...he rushed towards her, took her head in his lap and started patting her cheeks with one hand and tried to stop the blood with the other.
He started patting her as she was slowly and gradually loosing her consciousness, his eyes grew teary, he panicked now, the fear of loosing her was at a peak in his head; millions of emotions were rushing down but right now, reaching to the hospital and keeping her awake was more important to him, than even himself....with blood coated hands he called his friend Aayush who apparently worked at a nearby office to come as soon as possible and all he could say to her,
"Raa...RAAVIII...UTTH...UTTHNAAA...DEKH....DEKH....IDHARRR....RRRAAVVIIII...AANKHE...AANKHE KHULI RAKH...MAI...MAI FIRSE..."
And she cut him in the middle by stumbling and her voice so much breaking,she said..."SHI..SHII..SHIVAA...MERI...MERI MANNAT PU...PURI HO..HOGAI...PAN...PAN AAD..AADHI HI...AUR...AURR...AADHHI...TE...TERI...TUJ...TUJHE AB...ME...MERE...SE CHUT...KARA...(she was struggling to breathe as she was speaking but she still managed to complete the sentence)....SHI...SHIVAA..MAI...MAI BURI...BURI..NAHI HU...MAI...MAI TUJHE...Pas....TU...TU BHI...(her eyes shutting down as she was loosing her consciousness)
He again tried patting her cheeks with the hand with which once he had caressed when he gently slapped to kill the mosquito which sat on her face;the memories of her with him, how much he had been yearing for but not like this; he again said,
"RAA...RAAVI UTH, UTH MAI VOH GAANA FIR..FIRSE BHUL GAYA...KYA..KYA THA VOH...AAKHRI BAAR BATAA....BATAAA NA CHIPKALIIIII"
Him saying 'Chipkali', still made her heart flutter though her beats were slowing down...she managed to say..."Har..har..ghadi badal rahi..hai doop...zindagi...chaav hai...kahi...kahi hai...dhoop zindagi...SHI...SHIIVVAAA MAI...MAI TERE...LIYE...JE..JEENA CHAHTI THI....PAR VOH...NA SAHI...AAJ UPAR...PARCEL...HOJAUNGI......"
"CHUP....TU...TUJHE KUCH NAI HONE DUNGA....AUR ABHI TOH TUJHE AUR LADAI KARNI HAI...YEH...YEH LE..(grabs her hand and starts slapping himself with her hand)...MAI BOHOT BADA GADHEDA HOON NA LE...AUR THAPPAD MAARR....TU ESE CHODKE NAI JA SAKTI CHIPKALI...AANKHE...AANKHE KHULI RAKH...."
Shiva made sure that she stayed awake on their way towards the hospital....as he carried her in his arms and rushed towards the hospital gate and then the emergency center, hastily running...but maybe his heart beats were racing with his legs....the nurses took her in the OT along with doctors one or two, and he stayed there; alarmingly walking here and there...while Aayush informed the whereabouts of happening to the Pandyas and filled the other necessary formalities.
She was probably focused on a single thing i.e. to tell him how important he was for her and what value he held in her life was beyond anything he would have thought or what he would have predicted, she had very less time and thus, she pushed him to the sideways and boom, she was hit by the truck...now she fell...as she was struggling with everything, suddenly her eyes were blinking, it was all blurry now...she was able to see Shiva but she wasn't able to read his face now...she wanted to tell him and so she tried but she didn't knew if she told him the whole thing what had been filled inside her or not; and then he started the old tactics which he did in khandar too, she knew that he was purposely asking her to sing for him but can she deny him?
Even in dreams also, never. As she was loosing consciousness , her eyes were blinking, struggling to keep her eyes open or not but suddenly as she started feeling peace, a strange calm feeling which she never felt, it was soothing but he kept waking her and disturbing up that calmness she was feeling...and he wouldn't even let her be in peace, she thought to herself...the last thing she saw was him running as some people dragged her into a strange room, a big white light flashed on her face in that room of darkness with a weird smell...
Shiva kept walking here and there,back and froth, he was growing more and more restless with each passing seconds, each time a different thought striked him, and one after the other thoughts lingering in a lineage forming a chain and some head-made scenarios, he shrugged his head as if dissenting to the scenarios...His sky blue check shirt, was half covered with blood, leaving stains there and also on his heart because the situation they had been into, the moment it could be when they would get each other or the next moment maybe...they can loose each other. But this time his heart was so firm that it did not let his insecurities and his mind thin of anything, it was then where his heart decided that HE CANNOT AFFORD TO LOOSE HER, NO MATTER WHAT, HE WOULD CHANGE BUT HE COULD NEVER LOOSE HER...it was as if he would loose himself, and she wasn't just anyone...neither a different person she was...she was part of him, and he always had been a part of her, she still is because she was the only one who understood that it was not him and it was the complex which he felt and it was his insecurities bubbled up, and she was courageous enough to confront him the same thing, and she always will stay a part of him....and maybe that was the only reason he was hurt; and after all somewhere, wasn't he also expecting that she might understand his actions....he did, he did expect this.
By the time he was sunk into his thoughts and his unseen turmoil and lineage of various inner fights; he failed to notice the family members had reached there and Aayush who had been calm enough to explain them the whole scenario because it was worthless for anyone to ask Shiva or argue with him right now, reason being...that he won't answer and would rather be silent as he always does and the other, that this all could be discussed later, Raavi's well being was the need of the hour....one hour and thirty nine minutes later, the doctor exited the room, carefully examining some reports; and all rushed to the doctor, but he stayed undisturbed,sitting on the chair...but the doctor was so flooded with everyone's question,...he just said, "Who is Shiva?"....and he stood up...the doctor said, "You should go inside, she kept repeating your name in state of consciousness".
He went in, his heart had skipped beats now, throbbing faster and faster as it can be.
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Exploring The Bond,Within (Completed)
FanfictionAmidst of the beginning, It all seemed as if it was the ending, But then why there was no acceptance and only the disgrace. And thus a doubtfulness, A question still lingering on everyone's heads; The story which was so profound was this its end?
