We whisper through sin-stained lips, red with blood. I break my hand on your jaw but I kiss you better, cradling my hand to my chest. My eyes are bright with freedom but clouded by years of hell. You say we are friends and I say that we are each other's release. My hands still broken the next time I punch you, and I come out with a broken rib while you try to set a broken nose (I always did it for you) and there's a gash above your eyebrow. Do you regret buying me that ring?
We kiss under a street lamp, your dark hair shining in the artificial light. Your smile is like the sun incarnate while my teeth are crooked and tobacco stained. I have soot in my lungs from too many cigarettes and each cough rattles my lungs. You try to stop me, try to fix me but I shrug you off and smoke another pack to spite you. Do you regret telling me I'm going to die from them?
I see you in the daytime as I skulk around the back roads. I make deals in back rooms and money exchanges hands so many times I can't remember who originally gave it to me. Twenty for this, ten for that, and five for me I tuck the tips in my bra and shake my hips as I walk away. They'll give me ten next time or God be damned. You watch me take their money. Do you regret letting me leave last night?
I taste death on your tongue and I suck it out of you like poison in a snake bite. You're pure and full of hope and I'm leeching the light out of you.But I take your doubt and negativity for myself and wrap it up, away from you. Do you regret letting me in?
I'll suck on cherry lollipops and I'll die with a bullet lodged in my heart and you'll be too focused on my cherry stained, plump lips to notice the blood seeping through your white shirt on my torso.
[alt. titled "i got over my writers block but i'm writing things i can't use in my portfolio"] tbh whenever i write these im always imagining a dystopian novel-esque character but less male-lead driven
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alimento mori
De Todon. the insomnia-borne jolt of awareness that you will die. write it down before it's gone and let everyone see it because you exist, you exist, that sylvia plath quote running through your head, tattoo it on your veins, remind yourself you are here...