As much as it hurts, I can feel it trailing me in. Is this love or a sign to give up? I thought love was supposed to be sweet and lovely, but why does it hurt so much? I'm holding on, but not for long.
⚠️Tw!! Eating disorder mentions!⚠️
Start date:...
"What was that madness??!" our manager says while looking out the dark tinted windows.
"That was Eunbi's first scandal." Ryujin unnie says while leaning back in her chair. We head home and I get notifications every second from my phone.
'Jake and Eunbi confirmed?!?!' 'Eunbi is a player??' 'Park Eunbi being in a love triangle with Sunghoon and Jake!!'
Why are these random people on the internet assuming things??? I barely know Enhypen or whatever. We arrive at the dorm in silence as I bet everyone has things flying around in their head. Everyone slumps onto the couch including me.
"Eunbi are you okay? Your getting thin." Leeseo unnie says while staring at me deeply. The other members agree and mumble.
"I'm sorry for being thin! I'm sorry for being fat! I'm so sorry for causing all this trouble! Please just... just leave me alone." I plead at them while rubbing my temples.
"Eunbi we're sorry." Leeseo says while patting my back. Ah shit. I've messed up again haven't I? I hate me so much.
"no, I-I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything. I just make everything worse." I say while walking into my room and slamming the door.
I'm the problem. Everyone must hate me. I hate me for being like this. Why can't I just be like anyone else? I am a failure. If I disappeared would anyone care? Notice even?
Unknown contact: Block or save?
Unknown: Hey. Uhm I just wanted to check up on you.
Me: Wrong number.
Unknown: nah its jake
Me: wtf get out of my contacts
Unknown: OMG SO SORRY THIS IS ACTUALLY HEESEUNG BUT JAKE TOOK MY PHONE I SWEAR OMFG IM SO SORRY
Me: hmmm idk...
Unknown:
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Me: aight lemme just ask Sunghoon to check...
Unknown: why did he just slap my leg?!?
Me: Aight thats enough proof. that pic was a jump scare geez... but hiii
*You have changed this contact to heeseung oppa*
heeseung oppa: hii!! and rude... but how r u?
Me: if i said i was fine id be lying but its aight. and sorry my humor is too advanced i guess...
heeseung oppa: aww that sucks... and ill see you tomorrow so watch out!
heeseung oppa: and prob the day after!
Me: wat dafuq how... are you one of my fans by any chance??!! LMFAO
heeseung oppa: secrets are meant to be kept so you'll see.... and ill be a fan if you want me to ;)
Me: pedo alert!!
heeseung oppa: stfu your literally 19
Me: and your 20 you old ogre
heeseung oppa: wow now i will do smth to you tom
Me: wow scary! pls dont harm me! HAHA
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The next day my manager takes me at around 4pm to a unknown place. I ask a million times but she just says we are going somewhere to promote my groups song.
"We are here! let's go!" she says while dragging my arm and rushing into a familiar building.
"but this is music bank...." I mumble to myself as my manager drags me to wherever we are going.
"Yah! Eunbi!!" I hear someone shout from afar. I turn to see Heeseung walking towards me with a cheeky smile.
"Isn't it too early for this informal shit?" I say while laughing.
"Eunbi don't curse! I'm gonna tell mom!" Jay says while walking up to me with his other members. I roll my eyes at him and focus my attention back on Heeseung.
"Nah this is how all elite friendships start Eunbi. You wouldn't know since you haven't had one yet." Heeseung jokes.
I punch his shoulder making him act like it hurt until I feel the weight of someone's hand on my shoulder.
"I've never craved attention until I met you princess ;)" Sunghoon says slyly into my ear.
"Yah! Everyone away from my alleged girlfriend." I hear Jake say while shooing away Sunghoon from me.
"oooohhh it's the asshole from yesterday!" I say while pointing at Jake. I hear Niki snickering and Sunoo patting his shoulder.
"Only for you, babe ;)" Jake says while cheekily winking at me.
"I hate you so much." I say while rolling my eyes.
"Love you too, babe." Jake says jokingly. Well I hope it was a joke...
"I can't take anymore of this!! Get this lovey dovey stuff away from me!!" Jungwon says while walking away.
"Oh you guys have already met! Jake and Eunbi will be the special mc's for music bank while Arin is sick. Soobin is still here but Jake will switch out for him! Now get ready guys!" a staff says in a peppy voice while pushing me to the dressing room. What?? With that fucking idiot!??!
I get ready into a gorgeous outfit that was prepared for me in advance.
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I get my makeup done and as the makeup artist does it I practice my lines.
"I am bunny Eunbi?? What the hell is that line???" I say while reading my que cards.
"Don't worry I'm puppy Jaeyun according to my cards." I hear Jake say from the door way. he is leaning on the door with a smirk face.
"Jake your so fucking annoying you know that? I would run out of this room if I could." I say while sending the makeup artist away.
"I can't trust any girl after what happened to me. Your included. This act of you being perfect isn't working on me." Jake says while looking down.
"Just believe me when I say I'm not close to perfect. And trust is earned I know, so I'll make you trust me since we have to work together in the future." I say while holding my hand out so he can shake it.
"Your so intriguing. Okay. Make me trust again." Jake slowly says while shaking my hand.
"Okay good. Just know I still hate you for what you've said." I say while rolling my eyes and walking out. I read my que cards on the way to the set. Okay so txt, pentagon, g-idle, and ive. Top 3 are..." I start slowing my words when I realize a arm wrapped around me.
"Sunghoon! You scared me geez." I say while realizing who it was.
"Why? Were you expecting someone else?" Sunghoon says while raising his eyebrows.
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Word count: 1053❤️❤️❤️
This story is a flop LMFAOOO!! But love anyone whos reading this so far!!
