entry no. 11:
plans and choices
so this time, i'll be serious. it's about my future kasi—well, if i ever have one. i have three choices this time. three life choices na sobrang mababago ang takbo ng buhay ko. im really exhuasted just by thinking what should i really choose kasi it involves importat people in my life. so these would be my choices:
(1) to stay here in manila where great opportunities lie ahead. i am able to experience extravagance—a vibrant life, completely opposite of my life in my mother side. the only downside is that i can't balance the fast-paced life the people around me have. in here, im always tired, exhausted, and lack of sleep. in here, i was indirectly influenced to think that my education is a hindrance to doing my household chores.
(2) to go back in my mother side. walang ibang advantage dito kundi may mag-aayos sa bahay. considering na wala na yung lola ko, wala ng magguide sa kanila doon. ewan ko ba. ang hirap magpalaki ng malalaki na. hayst. naaawa lang ako sa lolo ko ron kasi siya sasalo lahat ng stress ng lola ko before eh. bugbog mental health ko kapag ito pinili ko.
(3) laguna <333 hahaha ang bias ko bwiset.
