Being the oldest
Turned me from a child
To a mature 16 year old
One with the mind of an adult
Thinking constantly of my future
To be "THE EXAMPLE"
It may seem awesome
Since your the first to leave the nest
The first to have some kind of authority over the younger generation
But being the oldest also means
Your no longer able to be just a child
Your feelings are pushed aside
And
You learn to not feel at all
You feign a face of pure happiness
When you don't feel anything
Your past traumas are pushed off for the benefit of your siblings
You are the rock and the glue
You keep it together for everyone
You age early
So boys are more interested early
They want nothing more than
Your body
And
All you want is a connection
You deal with hard issues but keep
Your mouth shut
You feel any emotion for no longer than 2 seconds and then
You're numb
Memories fade into nightmares
That come randomly
Tearing you down
And pour salt on reopened wounds
You get felt up physically
Used physically
Your flesh is nothing but
A masterpiece of
Colorful bruises
Littered with scars here and there
An empty shell
You have been used
For others benefit just
So you could feel useful
Now
Emotionless
A living walking
Corpse
That was once know as
The Oldest
Art by: TiaDanko's
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Unveild Human Civilization
PoetryTHIS IS NOT A STORY It is a point of vew of people and life the things i feel that maybe others can relate no sugar coated fantasies...If you can't handel some of it i understand just be respectfull in the comments please ;) ⚠️TRIGGER WARNING ⚠️ ...
