BOY IN LOVE || JH

THIRTY-EIGHT

Y/N'S POV

After yesterdays little double date and Ari posting pictures on instagram, I had gotten a text from Joshua.

I was definitely a bit surprised at the text message that basically told me that he wanted to meet up and talk.

That's why I was here right now, sitting across from Joshua.

"What did you want to talk about?" I ask, a little uneasy on why he suddenly wanted to talk to me like this.

He seemed a little too serious and it was freaking me out.

"Don't worry it's nothing bad." He says as he scoots his chair in closer to the table.

"What is it?" I ask and Joshua let's out a breath before he starts to speak, his voice somewhat low.

"I just wanted to apologize for everything that has happened with us way back when. I feel terrible about it and I never meant for any of that to happen. I was drunk and stupid. I really am sorry."

I blinked as I stared across at Joshua who was looking at me with a look of sadness, maybe regret? It was hard to tell.

"I just don't want you to hate me all our lives because of this. I really did care about you ya know. Seeing you and Hoseok together bothers me but at the same time, I'm glad you're finally happy. It sucks it wasn't with me but that's my own fault and I know that. I don't know, I just wanted to clear the air." Joshua says then falls silent as he waits for me to respond.

I sucked in a breath as I leaned back in my chair. I was trying to find the words to say.

"I appreciate your apology. It means a lot but I definitely don't think we can be friends. Acquaintances, sure, but that's it." I finally say.

Joshua is silent for a second before he nods. "I understand. I'm sorry I messed things up between us. If I could go back and change things I would. I'm sorry."

"Thanks for apologizing. It takes a lot of guts to admit your wrongs so I really appreciate it." I say and Joshua let's out a small breath as he nods.

"That's really all I wanted to talk about. You don't have to stay here anymore." He chuckles and I nod as I stand.

Luckily that was short and simple.

"Thank you, Joshua." Is the last thing I say before I leave him behind, along with the grudge I once held on him.

Sure, Joshua and I wouldn't be friends, but I did feel a weight off my shoulders at his apology.

After dealing with all of that for as long as I did, it felt nice to know he actually felt sorry and didn't just parade at the fact that he did it.

Hopefully he's learned from his mistakes and can move past them too.

No grudges on my end so I hope he forgives himself too.

With that thought in mind, I head home.

••••

"He apologized? That's awesome." Ari says as she grins Into the camera.

"Yeah it was nice of him. Maybe now it won't be so tense whenever he and Mingyu come around." I say and Ari nods, agreeing.

"So dude, you're really gonna go to college in Seoul?!" Ari asks, her smiling growing even bigger.

"I sure am. I still haven't gotten everything figured out yet but I'm really looking forward to it! It'll be nice to stay with Hoseok longer ya know." I smile, the thought making me excited all over again.

It'll be one thing to study in Seoul and be around Hoseok's friends and family, but I'll always be living with him too.

"Of course I don't want to jump the gun just yet since we still have a year and then some until then but still, it's exciting. I just hope me and Hoseok last and don't break up for some reason before then." I frown.

"Don't worry about that, you guys won't! You're soulmates." Ari grins and I can't help but to laugh too at how sure she seemed about it.

"Only time will tell. But hey, if all works out, you totally have to come visit!" I grin. "You would love Namjoon. He's literally you in guy form."

Ari smirks as she leans forward, sticking her face all up in the camera.

"I love him already!"

The remainder of our video chat we spend reminiscing on what it'll be like if everything works out and I go to Seoul.

What if I end up liking it so much I move there permanently? There was a lot of things that could happen and I was looking forward to all the possibilities.

Whatever the future had in store, I was more then ready for it!