Double secret Romance

19- A kiss to remember

Sol

It's my last day with Lisa & Lena. Since the other night when Lisa and I officially ended, she has not made much eye contact with me nor had spoken with me as much. Just the minimal conversation "good morning", "goodnight", or "thank you". And that's only because I did do her makeup for the last time this morning. Last night was even more awkward though because Lisa had started making dinner when I was only half way done with cleaning my makeup brushes in the kitchen sink. There was no conversation except when she would occasionally ask me for the water to wash her hands or vegetables on the other side of the sink. And after dinner was done, Lisa didn't join us at the table to eat, instead she ate in her bedroom.

Lena is still acting normal with me but she does notice the awkward tension between Lisa and I. Especially when they have a conversation when I'm right there with them, Lisa totally ignores me and talks directly to Lena. It is quite awkward but it's also frustrating to me at times. It makes me wanna burry myself in a blanket burrito and sit alone in my bedroom (which is thousands of miles away from me right now). I didn't want to leave on bad terms but it seems like we just might. I just can't believe Lisa is still ignoring me even on my last day here...

I turn over to Lena who is still laying in bed with me this morning. It's been nice sleeping in her bed and I'll definitely miss this For sure. Especially her occasional sleep talking throughout the night.

I decided to cuddle up to Lena for some comfort. She's so focused on tik tok so I watched with her. "NEIN NEIN" (no no) she yelled in embarrassment. She had watched a 'scary' tik tok with a unnecessary jump scare. I chuckled softly at her which surprised me. I haven't really been able to smile lately. I feel guilty for feeling joy while Lisa is in a bad mood with me. I feel like I need to keep feeling pity and self hate just because I made a mistake. Honestly Lisa should try to move on from this situation but it seems as if she still wants to hang on to her grudge. Maybe once I leave she will start to feel a lot better. And so will I.

I watched Lena shut her phone and put it to the side. "Ready to get out of bed again?" She asked me with a hopeful smile. I forced myself to get up this morning just because I dreaded seeing Lisa, but Lena promised to cuddle with me after I'm done with Lisa's makeup. That's the only thing that got me out of bed this morning, besides my love for makeup. "Nein" I replied to Lena as I shoved my face into her shoulder. She chuckled softly at me then kissed my head. "I like when you try German words" she admitted to me. I lifted my face a little to speak again "gute"(good). I told her then dug my face back into her shoulder. "So cute" she gushed. "More" she insisted. I reviewed my little German vocabulary in my head for a second. I quickly sat up on my knees and with my hands in the air I said loudly, "Guten Morgen!" (Good Morning). We both laughed.

Once the laugher dialed down she pulled me back down to lay with her again. As I laid there I watched her go on her phone again. She took a few quick photos of us but then she did something I didn't expect. She kissed my cheek at first then my lips, still taking photos. But I didn't hear anymore clicks at this point actually. Once our lips separated we both saw that she had started recording instead of taking more photos. "Oh I didn't mean to do that" she chuckled. As she was about to stop the recording she changed her mind and put the phone back up. "I'm here with my beautiful Sol, she's leaving me tonight" she spoke into the phone then started fake crying. I laughed and held her face along by a kiss on the cheek. "I already miss her" I spoke into her phone just tagging along.

"I already miss you too" she pouted at me. I then start to notice her eyes are getting watery. "Oh no Lena, you can't cry yet, save it for the airport" I wiped her eyes and started kissing her face. But her tears kept coming. "How do you say 'don't cry' in German?" I questioned her. "Weine nicht" she replied while still in tears. "Vina nichT Vina nichT" I'm not the best at German so I totally butchered it. She started laughing at my bad pronunciation. "Yes smiling, laughter, I love it" I yelled in excitement. She wrapped her arm around my shoulder to pull me back down to her. We both met lips again and kissed passionately for a few moments. "I'm gonna miss this so much" she told me while our faces are still close together. "Me too" I admitted.