Silence

Chapter 15

Chapter 15

After we swam, we lay on the picnic mat and I think he was enjoying me in my wet bra and panties.

We cuddled then and it was great, I love our dates.

Know that feeling when you feel whole, well I feel that.

"We are a great couple," I told Tyler kissing his cheek then putting my clothes on since I was dry and Tyler did the same, don't worry, we didn't do anything.

I felt sick, like I wood throw up but I didn't know why, it was a strange feeling but didn't last long.

"We should get going soon," Tyler told me packing everything up.

We went in his car back to the hotel I was out,

"Bells, we will be together for life," Tyler smiled "I love you."

He said he loved me!

"I love you way more," I giggled knowing I was really happy being with his boy right here.

I can't wait until we get married.

The rest off the drive went by quietly and I didn't want to go so I could spend more time with him but I had to.

Carl ordered Chinese food tonight and it was a bit good, I wasn't to hungry and I could tell Carl was still depressed.

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Have you ever felt like you were worthless? Well if you have, just remember you aren't.

I feel like I'm worthless a lot but hey, I'm not, I'm awesome and I'm me.

People bully while others get bullied and it's horrible, I did get bullied but I learnt that they bully because they have nothing better to do.

After they knew I had schizophrenia, they left me alone probably fearing that I'd hurt them.

If I take pills I don't hurt people but they didn't know because they only cared for theirselves and I hated that like we could all be friends but we choose not to, why? Why do we live this life?

I lost my parents, Carls getting depressed, Adam and I are basically looking after ourselves but Tyler helps me a lot and it was great, I knew my life wasn't perfect but hey, it's better then nothing, I have been felling pain way to much so I want it to stop.

I don't think Carl cared what we really did because he left us to do our own stuff usually and Adam has been hanging around with new friends he made that are at our hotel and I try staying away from them.

I have stayed a few nights at Tyler's so I could get away from my brothers.

He was sweet all the time to me but we haven't been talking at much.

So I want to surprise him knowing he loved me made me feel better.

I left my house happily then went to his, his mum answered letting me in but when I opened his door I froze.

HE IS WITH THE SAME GIRL AS LAST TIME AND IS CHEATED ON ME!

Tears went down my cheeks as I ran out and kept running until I got to a cliff.

I fell down and curled up crying.

No one ever came here especially since people took there lives here, it made me feel sad that they could do that but I knew how they felt.

I felt like that during my while freaking like but I stayed strong and kept living the best way I could.

I remembered hearing a story off this guy 'Harrison Moore', he was only nineteen when he jumped breaking his head open and he died because off his life, everyone that knew him felt guilty when I felt sorry.

I went here because it made me feel powerful to be here and I loved the feeling.

I left the cliff and walked down just being sad.

I loved him with my whole heart but he didn't.

Authors notes!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, I hate Tyler know!

I know I write this but hey, I want to make my story deferent then others, you may like Tyler but I'm sorry need to do this and make my story interesting,

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