Alter Ego - Rewritten (A Hermitcraft AU)

Chapter 2 - My New Home..?

Chapter 2 - My New Home..?

No TWs (please tell me if I missed anything. /gen)

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The voice was gentle, welcoming in a sort. They were clearly British like myself, as of the pretty heavy accent. I gazed at the helmet on their head, a yellow and brown striped helmet with a brown-ish visor, with yellow antennae coming out the top of the helmet. The rest of their outfit also matched this theme, the shades of yellow flowing down the armour. They had a plain leather satchel embroidered with a bee on it, clearly full of things I couldn't guess. Their eyes shone brightly through their visor, yet the colour was impossible to tell due to the tint. Scars on their face were also visible, forming an 'X' across their face. I let out a small sigh and smiled.

"Yeah, I am. The name's Grian if you were wondering." I said, my voice slightly shaky.
"Nice to meet you Grian, I'm Xisumavoid, also known as Xisuma or X. Admin of hermitcraft."

So that's why this guy looked so familiar.

Other admins spread stories about themselves to each other, and the name was familiar from those stories. I never really did those stories, the only ones going around about me was my corruption.

"So, what're you doing here, Grian? I know you're an admin for a smaller server so what brings you here?"
"Oh uh... Well, long story short, I need a new home. The long story you aren't getting."
"That's so helpful, thank you!" Sarcasm was a clear tone in his voice, yet it still sounded so sweet and innocent it was almost funny.
"I know, I am a very helpful person."

The two of us laughed a bit, cracking up at our small sarcastic comments. It felt nice being talked to, however I did all I could to hide it as I didn't need Xisuma knowing I missed talking to people.

"So, you need a new home ya say?"
"Yup."
"I mean, you could come join me and my friends in hermitcraft, it's a chill place and very accepting."
"I- You're literally someone I met 5 minutes ago, how should I trust you?"
"It's clear you do otherwise you would have walked off."

Welp. That was checkmate. I sighed, smiling slightly.

"I mean, even if I didn't I still wouldn't have walked off." I mumbled, not knowing he could hear.
"Hm? Why's that..?"
"Oh uh- Nothing."

I looked down to the floor before back up at him, my eyes locking with his sympathetic ones. I didn't want to lie to him, yet I didn't want to ruin this small bond that had formed. I felt him pull me close into a hug, letting me move away or closer if I wished. And I hugged him, I held him as close as I could. I hadn't had this in years, and stars above, did it feel good. I tried to suppress the tears forming in my eyes, failing miserably as some of them started to fall. I felt his arms wrap tighter around me, clearly wanting to give me comfort but was unsure how.

"You know you can tell me, admins have each other's backs."

I sighed before murmuring words. "These idiots exiled me despite me being their admin for something I can't scudding control. It just hurts so bad knowing nobody's gunna like me because of these stupid things."
"..You're corrupted aren't you?"
"I bet you hate me now you know.."
"Why would I hate you?!" The tone of surprise was clear in his voice, yet I tried my best to ignore it.
"Because I'm dangerous, I can easily harm people, I can easily lose control."

He held me close and I just smiled slightly, hugging back tightly.

"Look, I'm not going to hate you because of that. You couldn't control that and it isn't your fault. I know someone like you, who's been looking for you for ages. Well not you in particular, but you know what I mean."

Shock filled me. I thought I was alone. I thought it was just me. I thought I would never find anyone else. I didn't know someone, at least one other person, was like me. And now I did, I was filled with hope. It felt so good to know I was not alone.

"Really?"
"Do I look like the kind of person who would lie?"
"Yeah, but you don't sound like it."
"Wow, that's so reassuring." He teased, giggling at his own comment.
"I'm just so great like that."
"I've gathered."

I giggled before finally letting go and ending the hug, wiping my pathetic tears off my face. I felt myself look up at the other, smiling through the tears of pain and regret. I felt my hand interlock with his, and I looked up to make eye contact.

"Well then." I started.
"Hm..?"
"Let's go."
"You're actually going to come?!"
"Yeah, I need support like that almost 24/7 so-"
"Well, myself and the other hermits will always be here for you, alright?"
"Alright.."

He started to lead me to the hermitcraft portal, talking and giving me a rundown of what's going to happen and how we're going to sort out housing, etc. I felt my mind wander slightly as we walked, thoughts of shock and curiosity filling my mind. I mean, this person was like me, yet how similar were they? We were both corrupted, yes, but what have we both been through that makes us alike? Or is it just the corruption that connects us, and that's the only bond that we'll ever need? Was I being lied to, or was there actually someone like me?

I was snapped out my thoughts as we suddenly stopped outside the portal, my gaze landing on how it shone. It shone like the barrier before, but brighter and more colourful. The barrier was just a colourless light, this shone bright like a rainbow. It made me feel safe, it reminded me of a home I'd once known, but I still needed to know I was safe. I knew I was, I had Xisuma, at least I think I do, and I'll have others to support me, at least that's what he said, and those thoughts alone were what I was living on. Those thoughts fuelled the rest, and it felt good to have so many thoughts for once. It was normally bad or overwhelming and he would use it for his own self gain, but I mean, what's the point in living if you don't have highs and lows? I made eye contact with X once again, waiting for him to say something, anything.

"So, are you ready to go in?"
"Ready as I'll ever be."
"Let's go meet the people you'll know and grow to love, hopefully at least."

I knew what to write for today's journal entry.

Dear Myself,
I've now got a new home, and I don't want to go back to what I was before.

I hope you enjoyed this chapter! :D
I'll see ya soon with the next chapter :]

~Nether