About a week has passed since the Sewol Ferry tragedy. I ended up having to drop out of the survival show because of my health issues. So I went back to school. Only three more days before our graduation. No, it's only my graduation now, because you're no longer with me.
At school today, all the parents that lost their children were at the school. They were lined up and the students who survived the Sewol Ferry sinking were hugged by the parents of those classmates who didn't survive. And I technically was also one of the survivors.
So I was there too. All the students walked down slowly hugging each parent who lost their child in this tragedy. It was a very emotional time, but I guess I had used up all my tears on the hospital rooftop, there are no tears left to cry. Or so I thought.
Down the line, I came across the parents of Jae-Hyun. I just stood there in front of them. Not caring if I blocked the path of the other students. I hugged them and we cried together. You know, they were supposed to be my father and mother-in-law if I had never lost Jae-Hyun.
This was the first time I've hugged someone for so long. It was painful for them too, they lost their son and I lost the love of my life.
_________________
Soon, came the graduation, but none of us were really happy.
I got to graduate with Hae-Won and Hyun-Jung. But I wasn't able to graduate with the person I truly wanted to graduate with. We used to talk about it at night, about our graduation together. We thought we could graduate together and had a whole future planned out.
Nothing ever goes as planned.
_________________________
It's been two years since the Sewol Ferry tragedy, since I lost Jae-Hyun. I've been a little happier these days. I've finally debuted like I always dreamed of. Yet, my heart is still empty. In the end, it's still Jae-Hyun that I want.
Every time I perform on stage, and as I look at my fans, there's always a specific person I'm searching for. But he is someone that will never be able to watch my performances.
__________________________
"Hey," I said to the person over the phone, "can we meet up?"
"What? It's quite late," he said.
"I want to discuss a song." I firmly said.
"Alright."
"Meet me at [the location]."
It's been two years since I came here, the swings on the hill. The small park didn't seem to have changed, but everything else was different.
"Hey, Jieun." the man from the phone said.
"Hey, Nam-Joon, it's been a while." I continued with the small talk.
"You asked to discuss a song here? At this park?" he asked.
"Yeah, here," I pulled out a small mp3 and shared the earphone with him as we sat on the swings. "This is the song." I played the song and we listened.
"This is the song I produced with Jae-Hyun a few years ago. I've thought about this for a long time, and I've decided to give this song to you guys. It would be great if BTS could sing this song instead."
"Why give it to us?" he asked.
"I can't sing this song myself, I won't make it by then" I said.
________________________
{2/12/2017}
Spring Day
I miss you
Saying this makes me miss you all even more
I miss you
Even though I'm looking at your photo
Time's so cruel, I hate us
Seeing each other is now more difficult
It's all winter here, even in August
My heart is running on time, alone on the Snowpiercer
I want to go to the other side of Earth, holding your hand, put an end to winter
How much should my longings fall like snow
Before the days of spring return, friend?
Like the tiny dust, tiny dust floating in the air
I could've reached you faster
If I was snow flying in the air
Snowflakes fall down
And fall apart little by little
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
How long do I have to wait
How many nights do I have to pass
To see you? (To see you)
To meet you? (To meet you)
Pass the end of winter's cold
Until the spring day comes again
Until the flowers bloom again
Please stay, please stay there a little longer
Is it you who changed? (Is it you who changed)
Or is it me? (Or is it me)
I hate this moment, this time flowing by
We've changed, you know?
Just like everyone, you know?
Yes, I hate you, you left me
But I never stopped thinking about you, not even a day
I miss you, honestly, but I'll erase you
'Cause it hurts less than to blame you
I try to exhale you in pain
Like smoke, like white smoke
I say that I'll erase you
But I can't really let you go yet
Snowflakes fall down
And fall apart little by little
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
How long do I have to wait
And how many nights do I have to pass
To see you? (To see you)
To meet you? (To meet you)
You know it all, you're my best friend
The morning will come again
No darkness, no season can't last forever
Maybe cherries are blossoming
And winter is going to be over
I miss you (I miss you)
I miss you (I miss you)
Wait a little bit, just a few more nights
I'll be there to see you (I'll go there to meet you)
I'll come for you (I'll come for you)
Pass the end of winter's cold
Until the spring day comes again
Until the flowers bloom again
Please stay, please stay there a little longer
YOU ARE READING
Spring day
Teen FictionJieun just turned 18 year old with her childhood crush Jae-hyun. They've know each other since they were only toddlers and both have obvious feelings for another. As one of them confesses, they start dating. Along the story, they will have to deal w...
