The Outsiders Imagines

Plagued By the Memory

This was requested by @One_directioner4eva

TW: Themes of rape, PTSD and panic attacks

I really messed up this time. Usually, I'm never out so late - especially after what happened. A few months ago I was... Well, to put it in simple terms, I was raped by some scumbag Soc. I didn't get a proper look at him. Maybe I did, but I don't remember - I was too busy being petrified fighting for survival.

I was left sobbing in that alley. I didn't want to go home to my brothers - but I didn't know what to do. Even though Ponyboy is my twin brother, it felt impossible to tell him something like this. Eventually, I ran. I just ran as fast as I could and let my feet decide where to take me.

When I finally stopped running, I found myself knocking frantically on Two-Bit's front door. He opened up and was about to make a joke like usual until he saw my face. Tears streaming down my face with bloodshot eyes - practically hyperventilating.

He ushered me in and made sure his sister stayed in her room until I calmed down. We've always been close, so I've seen him when he hasn't been acting like a clown plenty of times. It took a long time before I could say anything, but he was patient with me and offered me a drink and some food - he even turned Mickey off. He was understanding and swore not to tell a soul, especially my brothers. Somehow, he managed to convince Darry to let me stay over for the night. Two-Bit took care of me and we've been practically attached at the hip more than usual since then because of how protective he is.

I don't remember how, but Dally found out - I know it wasn't Two-Bit who told him though. Dal got so pissed that he basically went on a rampage to hunt down the guy who did it. He ended up getting thrown in the cooler again. That's how Darry found out. Darry had to bail him out and demanded to know what happened this time. Dally was reluctant to say the truth, but he let it slip and the rest of the gang found out. At first, Darry was pissed that Two-Bit didn't tell him - then he took him to the side to thank him, respecting his promise and how he treats me.

Pony and I were with Johnny in the lot after going to the drive-in with Two-Bit and Dally. Somehow, all three of us managed to fall asleep. I woke up to the high wind and realised it was really late. Immediately, I woke up the boys and headed home with Pony. I wanted Johnny to come with us, but he decided to stay put.

As soon as we walked through the door, Darry started yelling at us. He said a few times how I know better than to be out so late. It feels like this loud lecture has been going on for a lifetime. Still, the shouting continues as he berates Pony.

"That ain't fair, Darry!" I fire back in Pony's defence.

"Life ain't fair, Y/N!"

"Come on, Dar, leave 'em alone." Soda tries to end this arguing but fails.

"Shut your trap, Soda! I'm sick of you defending 'em all the time!" Darry screams in his face.

"Don't you talk to him like that!" Pony and I shout at him as I move forward slightly.

Boom! All the screaming suddenly turns to silence as I hit the ground. I freeze as my mind gets flooded. What just happened? Did Darry just hit me? Did he just push me over? This is how it started with that Soc. As my breathing changes drastically, I hesitate.

"Y/N, I-I didn't mean to."

"Y/N!" Soda and Pony yell as they realise what's about to happen.

With that, I run as fast I can out the door. Plagued by the memory, I run in the direction of Two-Bit's house. Tears spill as muffled yelled apologies get drowned out by replayed memories. Suddenly, I feel someone grab my arm with a strong grip. I let out a gasp as I quickly turn around.

"Y/N." Darry says firmly.

"Get off me!" I shout as I try to free my arm. "Please! Leave me alone!" I plead. "Please!" My voice cracks as I start sobbing.

Darry let's go as he sees the fear in my eyes. I fall back to the ground as I start to feel light-headed. I bury my head in my knees as I continue to exhaust myself from sobbing.

"Y/N, I'm sorry. I messed up big time." Darry apologies as he crouches in front of me. "I'm so sorry, kid. I'm sorry, okay? Y/N, please forgive me. I'm sorry." He begs for forgiveness.

"Y/N, are you okay?" I hear Soda and Pony ask.

I look up and see their blurred figures behind Darry.

"Honey, I need you to calm down." Darry says calmly as he moves my hair out of my face.

"Darry, I got this."

Ponyboy comes forward and volunteers himself to help out. He's used to Johnny and I having panic attacks, so he knows what to do in this situation. Eventually, I slowly start to calm down and come back to reality.

"You alright?" Soda asks.

"I think so." I say as my breathing stabilises. "Thanks, Pony." He then walks over to Soda who gives him a proud smile.

"Y/N, I'm sorry." Darry apologies for the millionth time.

"It's okay, Darry. Just please, please never do that again."

"I promise. I ain't gonna hurt you and neither is anyone else. I ain't ever gonna let anyone hurt you again. I love you." He rambles as he wraps his arms around me.

"I love you too." I say as I hug him back.

Almost instantly, Soda and Pony join us in a group hug on the ground. When we break the hug, Darry gives me a piggyback as we all head back home to call it a night. While I'm unsure how many of us are crying, I am sure that no matter what happens, these guys love me.