After 3 years of her beloved Rahul Jaykar's tragic 'suicide' , Aarohi was believed to have moved on from the trauma by the people. Or can I say she pretended to have moved on and living happily? She focused on her career, worked hard , smiled all t...
The picture of Rahul running away from me was continuously spinning in my head. All throughout the way to home and now when I'm inside this lonely room, I can't seem to forget that the person I waited for more than three years did not want me as much as I did.
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I was sat on the ground with my back resting on the door, and head covered between hands on the knees. I was regretting everything. Everything from the start until today. I shouldn't have met him. I shouldn't have fallen in love with him. I shouldn't have been a singer. I shouldn't have gone to find him. I had thousands of thoughts running in my head but one strange thing was - I wasn't crying. Why? Well I think my tears also gave up on me as he did.
I think there comes a time when even you don't cry anymore for the same thing because the brain just accepts the fact that you didn't deserve that.
I was just sitting on the ground staring at the picture of Rahul and me together when I heard someone ringing the door bell. I didn't want to open the door. I didn't want to meet or talk to anyone. I sat there motionless. My cellphone kept buzzing but I didn't bother to check it . The door bell rang once again followed by Sehgal uncle's voice. I didn't want him to see me in the state I was in at the moment but I had to meet him for him to worry less.
I got up and opened the door.
"Why the hell you looking like this?" Sehgal uncle exclaimed as his expressions went from happy to terrified on seeing me.
He probably meant I looked like a zombie with red eyes and dark circles accompanied by chapped lips. I was dehydrated. But I couldn't care less.
He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and sat me down on the couch. I could feel he was staring at me but I didn't look back at him. I was nervous as this was the time I had to stop lying to him and tell the whole truth.
"Aarohi bete please speak something. What is going on? You're certainly not fine. You look depressed. And since the day you decided to *hang out*, I'm getting this weird feeling that something is definitely going on. But since you're not looking good , I'm taking you to the hospital right now."
"No uncle" I held his hand and stopped him. "We're not going anywhere." I finally looked at him and he was staring at me with confused eyes.
He was just about to protest when I spoke again "I have something to tell you". After a moment of silence he finally spoke "OK. Say."
"Rahul is alive." He pressed his lips in a tight line when he heard me and said," that again?" He continued after a long sigh" Aarohi I thought we were clear on this topic?"
"I've seen him. In fact all these days I was not hanging out, but looking for him."I stated in a single breath.
"Are you serious?" He reacted the same as I expected. "Are you out of your mind? Can you even hear yourself? " now he was angry. I've never seen him angry in a long time specially at me.
I was about to speak again when he took out his phone from his pocket and started dialling some numbers. I grabbed his phone and sighed deeply.
"You have to listen to me please"
"I listened enough. I'm calling your father. He should come here and...take you to your home." He didn't meet my eyes and sighed sharply. "You should spend some quality time with your parents because I think this lonely house has..turned you..."
"Crazy"? I completed his sentence.
"Well I can understand why you probably think I'm crazy but first I want to explain myself. After I complete speaking, you can decide if I am crazy or not!" He didn't say anything.
"Uncle please let me explain" I pleaded but he kept quite. I knew he didn't want to talk to me but I still continued "remember the day of Vivek's engagement..I told you I saw him?" He still kept quiet without looking at me. "You all probably thought that was merely a misunderstanding but I was sure of what I witnessed. It was him uncle. It was my Rahul. You really think I could be mistaken about him in anyways? When I got the idea that none of you believed me I decided to find him out Myself." I turned my back to him and spoke again after a pause. "I lied to you and Vivek that I just wanted to use my free time exploring the city. Actually, I used to disguise myself and roam around the city to search for him. I visited almost ever hotel, guest houses, or any place where he could possibly be. I searched a lot but...but didn't find him." I was on the verge of tears by now but I had to complete the conversation. After a pause, I continued " when I was almost about to give up and start doubting myself, I finally got a clue." I turned around and looked at him. And now he was curiously looking at me. Because of that I got more courage to resume " one day I was sitting at marine drive and unintentionally overheard two people talking. One among them said that she saw Rahul Jaykar. My heartbeat fastened and I went upto her and asked about where she spotted him. After collecting all the information..today I went there. It was a very terrible place. I doubted if he could be there. I was walking around when a kid snapped my bag and ran away. I followed him but he was way too fast. When I was breathless, I stopped. But someone helped me get my bag back. When I looked up at him...he was...Rahul!" Due to repeating all the things that happened, I couldn't refrain from crying now. Sehgal uncle came and gently patted my head. When I was calmed down, he asked "are you saying the truth? Are you sure it was him?"
"He doesn't look like before" He has long thick beard covering half of his face. He looked pale. He wore torn old clothes. I don't know if that's how he lives now or he's just trying to hide from the world. But I recognised him uncle. I instantly knew it was him because I love him" he nodded his head in agreement.
I continued " as soon as he saw me, he turned on his heels and ran off from me. I shouted his name , I followed him but he..he didn't stop. And In a blink of an eye, he disappeared through those narrow streets. He just ran away. I couldn't reach him. I couldn't hug him. He ran away from me. He doesn't love me." With this, I sat on the ground and broke into sobs which I was holding until now. I felt uncle's hand on my shoulders s he was trying to comfort me.
The analogy I made a few minutes back about brain acceptting everything and not crying anymore was wrong. Its a wrong statement that you don't cry on the same thing because your heart accepts the situation and moves on. No. It doesn't happen that way. No matter how much time has passed, the pain we go through never soothes away, it stays forever. It pinches you from time to time and lets you realise that it is there.
And I knew that today's incident was never going to wash away from my memory and will always pinch me to pain from time to time.
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*I feel so bad for Aarohi :( But what do you think is gonna happen now? Andddd...how do you like the story so far??? Please shower comments, votes, and help me increase followers :()*
