Chapter 20

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Trigger warning
Mature language
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Chandlers POV

In the midst of my extremely traumatic, absolute shit show of a lifetime I appreciate times that I can just do normal things. Like play video games with my best friend on a Saturday morning, something pretty much every teenager gets to enjoy.

"Dude, you have to go. C'mon you know Ricky Foreman? I heard his sister is bringing some of her college friends." Zay is making his argument for another high school party, which is code for a sea of drunk 17 year olds in some moms living room, as all of them are.

"What do you care? You're with Jamie." I say, focusing on the TV.

"I meant for you, idiot. I think that's just what you need, an older woman. Someone to take care of you." Zay snickers the last part and I elbow him in the ribs.

"And I think you're a dumbass." I say as I kick his ass for the 5th time in Mortal Kombat. He sighs and sets the controller down.

"How's your arm?" He asked.

"Eh it's better, Andy's been changing the bandage and everything." I mumbled. Then he gave me a look that I couldn't quite place. But I didn't have time to figure it out because his phone rang.

I tuned him out and picked a new character while he talked on the phone. I had just finished finding the right map and clicking on Scorpion when he hung up and said,

"Bradley and Laura are coming to hang out with us."

"Dude what? I'm in my pajamas!" I know I'm panicking and probably look stupid but I can't help it as I jump up and desperately look around for something better to wear.

"Dude relax. I'm sure they'll find your Star Wars pajamas very cool!" Zay mocks and I throw a pillow at his head.

"How close are they?" I ask, continuing to rummage through my bag.

We were interrupted by the doorbell ringing. How cliche.

"Shit. How'd they get here so fast?" I ask.

"I don't know...oh she texted me too. Whoops." He said carelessly and tossed his phone on the bed.

I sighed and took off my shirt to change.

"Hey we're here! The door was unlocked so we— oh. Uh, am I interrupting?" Laura asks, walking through the door.

No shit Laura. No. Shit.

I quickly turn around and put on another shirt, trying to hide my embarrassment and trying not to think about the ridiculous Star Wars pajama pants I'm wearing.

"Ever heard of knocking?" I mumble, grabbing a pair of jeans.

"Oh relax, Chandler. We've all seen your bird chest and noodle arms before." Zay jokes.

Bradley and Laura laugh.

"Yeah you didn't think they were noodle arms when I beat the shit out of you now did you?" I mumble, and push past Laura and her new "totally awesome and incredibly hot boyfriend" to go to the bathroom and change.

It's gonna be a long life.

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I've decided, liking someone is a whole lot better when they don't have a boyfriend. A boyfriend who always knows what to say, never fumbles over his words, reads all the same books as her and knows how to play guitar.

Shit, even I'd date him if I had the chance.

I know I should be over it, but how could Laura do this to me? Her leaving was devastating enough, but that wasn't her fault. That was a circumstance we couldn't change.

But for her to come back and immediately get a new boyfriend? Was I that bad?

Maybe if I'd had more experience I would've been  better at being a boyfriend, but now I'm older and more mature and...

and I've never dated anyone since Laura.

But how can I date anyone else when she's right in front of me? It's like seeing chocolate milk in the refrigerator and being like "nah I'll take water".

"So what are you guys' plans after graduation?" Perfect Bradley asks.

"I'll probably go to a local college and study art...I wouldn't mind being an art teacher but I'm not sure." Laura answers thoughtfully, tucking her hair behind her ear and smiling.

"Really? You wanna stay here? Man, I can't wait to get out of this town as soon as possible." Bradley responds carelessly. I notice Laura's face fall a little bit.

"So I guess we'll be doing long distance then." She mutters.

"Yeah but if anyone can do it, it's us." Bradley shrugs and kisses her on the cheek. Laura smiles, but it's not as big as before.

"Call me lame but I kind of want to stay here too. All my friends are here, and I don't want to leave my mom by herself. I don't really know what my plan is yet, college would be cool I guess but I wouldn't mind going straight into the work force either." Zay says, followed by,

"What about you Chandler?"

I think for a moment. What do I want to do? I've considered my options but I've never really been asked by anyone but Andy, who will be supportive even if I decide to go to clown college and join the circus.

"I think...I think I'm gonna stay here too. Maybe study child psychology or something like that, I don't know yet." I mumble.

"Ah so following in Mr. Addams footsteps?" Laura teases. I try to smile politely, but I can't really smile because I'm worried she'll see right through me and realize that I still love her and then Bradley will realize it too and we'll have to fight and I'll look like a giant loser and—

"So are you guys planning on having kids?" Laura changes the subject, but not really. She's still right on topic, cool as a cucumber while I'm anxiously spinning all kinds of different scenarios in my head. Will this ever end?

A/N: .....

I am SO sorry that I haven't updated in so long, I have been dealing with a lot if I'm honest.

I'm getting ready to start college, I've had two deaths within the past year, graduated from high school...a LOT. But this has been in the drafts for a while and I'm sorry it's not longer but I wanted to go ahead and get something out there....thank you for reading and I promise to be more consistent from now on!

thank you for reading and I promise to be more consistent from now on!

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