Carousel of the Mind

Betrayal

Never in a Live feeling belonging and searching for a safe Haven is hard and exhausting.
But even harder and much more hurting is it when one thinks, they finally found some people to care about them and to call theyr friends, only for those to push you away as soon as it gets the tiniest bit twisted as live often goes.
Whats hurting most of all is when people one likes and thought that liked them aswell cant or wont talk to one. Thats cowardly behavior and its honestly making one feel sorry for them.
Just because a Situation is complicated doesnt give those the right to shut one out of everything that gave happiness and a hold in Live only to make them feel like theyve done something to deserve that. Especially when they know one well enough to be aware of the Sensuality they can have.
The Situation could have surely made one sad, yes. But whats making them not only that but also extremely angry and disappointed, is the fact that they tried to hide it.
When any Person could literally feel that something is off by walking in a Room for Weeks and bursting ones head to get the Reason why just to find out that, again, so called 'Friends' are just People and when they couldnt bare looking one into their eyes out of guilt and shame.
Those People are dead to one.
Those People don't deserve anyones Trust, Time or Feelings.
One will never let them in again.
Its kind of a Poetic Heartbreak in a multidimensional way but that sadly wont make it hurt less.

One wont be sad to go and they wont be looking back on those People that they Pity for those small Minds and cowardly Personalitys.