Seventeen Imagines.

His legal wife (pt 4)

Loving someone knowing they'll die soon.

That's what Y/N was doing. After living with Hoshi for good long time under the same roof, she found many amazing reasons to love a guy like him. He's good looking, caring, smart, nice, lovable, good at everything; she thinks that no words were enough to describe how amazing he is. And also no words were enough to describe how much she has fallen in love with him.

She can say she loves Hoshi to anyone and no one will find it weird since both of them are a married couple. But there's one person she can't confess her feelings to, that is Hoshi. Whenever she tries to say it to him, she always remembers what he had told her from day one.

'You can fall in love with me, but I advise you not.'

He did give her permission to love him but still told her not to. What does that mean?

He had made it very clear, very clear that he won't ever love her back even if she loves him. He can't love anyone, that's what he meant.

"But that doesn't mean I can't love you.", Y/N said while sitting alone in her huge room. Yes, they used separate rooms. "And why are we sleeping in different rooms?", she asked while pouting. She never complain about it before, in fact she was the one who suggested to use separate room. But now she hated the fact that their rooms were separate, she didn't like how she can't used the same room with her husband whom she loves.

Childish complains aside, now she's thinking how she will make Hoshi happy, "He don't have much time left. He should spend every second of time happily.". As a result, she decided not to tell  her feelings to Hoshi, that will only add more stress to him and she doesn't want that to happen. She can love him silently, she can only look at him from afar, that's what she should do.

'But will I ever regret not telling him?'

Shaking her thoughts off, she stood up and decided to go to his room. With silly smile on her face, she made her way to the room which was located right opposite to hers.

"Hyung, please understand this...", she halted her feet when she heard his voice inside. Her original plan was to ask him where he wanted to go tomorrow, but she decided not to since it seemed like he was busy. She turned around to walked back to her room, however, "Y/N don't know....", his continual words stopped her.

'Me? I don't know what?', she thought she had already know a lot but there's still things she don't know about him. That made her curious and made her eavesdrop.

"No, I never intended to hide this from her forever. I will tell her when thing's right.", she tighten her grip on the doorknob, something inside her was telling her to stop or else she might hear something that'll break her in pieces but she didn't move a muscle and continued listening.

"It's not even like I will die soon for real. I can tell her when I'm ready...", his next words thunderstruck her both emotionally and mentally. 'He won't die?', her breath became unsteady. "Okay...thank you hyung. Oh! And also for the fake report, thanks."

'What fake report? What is going on? He lied? He's not sick?'

Many questions arise inside her head. She was not sure how she was feeling, is she mad because he lied or is she relieved that he won't die? She don't know, but one thing for sure, she's mad at herself for trusting him very easily. While holding her tears, she dashed inside his room. He looked at her with widened eyes but soon it softened, he must have realized that she heard him, she heard all his lies.