Don't know (Sequel to Why -posie/hosie)

Chapter 11

Josie PoV:
We were sitting in the back seat in silence. Well, almost silence since we were both out of breath. Both of us probably thinking about what we did or more specifically what we just destroyed. Our relationships are not going to be the same after that and it's terrifying.

I looked at Hope, but she was already looking at me "so...". I just closed my eyes and that's when I felt soft lips on mine. Before I could react she pulled away "I'm sorry, I just didn't want you to panic."

I looked at her again and smiled "I know. But you know this was a mistake, right? It can't happen again?". I knew it hurt to hear these words, but it's for the best and we both always knew that.

Hope smiled sadly "I know. But I can't stop thinking about you. And we could always just ditch them. Hell, we are ditching them right now. It doesn't have to be bad.".

I opened the door and got out, she followed quickly behind me "no. I can't. We can't hurt them like that. Not over something that probably won't even last. It didn't the last time, it won't now.".

Hope walked closer to me and I could see the hurt in her eyes "you don't mean that.". I didn't, but it was for the best to say it. We would only end up alone at the end or hurt each other more than we did the last time.

It won't work, even though I wanted it so badly. But sometimes, you just can't get everything that you want and that's okay.

I looked away and started walking towards the restaurant. Hope followed behind me "Josie, please. I can't.... I can't do this again.".

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Hope PoV:
She stopped and when she was about to keep going, I continued "I can't get over you again. It hurt too much the last time. I can't. Please don't do this to us. To me, to yourself. Please."

I was nearly crying at that point. She wouldn't do this, would she? Choose her again over me. I knew I would choose Josie over Landon any day, but would she do the same? Or are we both going to end up hurt at the end of this.   Or is it just going to be me?

Whatever she says or does next, I knew one thing for a fact. Somebody will get hurt tonight. I just hoped it wouldn't be me.

She hesitated, I could see that by the way she moved. After a few moments she mumbled "I'm sorry, it's for the best" and walked in. In that moment my heart broke, but I just followed her back in.

Maybe that's the end for us. It probably is. It just doesn't feel like that yet.

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Welp. And everything is going wrong again.

Sorry :)