She's Mine

Chapter 27

Chapter 27

“Ava ganda, pupunta lang akong bayan! Maiwan ko muna kayo!”

“Sige po, Ate!” balik na sigaw ko.

It's been a years, two years to be exact. I don’t know how I got through, coped with everything that happened in my life. Just knowing I did. I just woke up one day, smiling because there's a little angel kissing my whole face.

Clock is ticking, time is running. World is spinning and everything changing. Kung dati ay bata lang ako, inosente at tila walang alam sa mundo. Ngayon I'm already a mother! Parang kailan lang.

I'm a mother.

“M-minee! Wiii~”

I've realized how hard the life of being a mother. I was deprived of the love of a real mother. And I won't let my baby feel those kind of pain. As long as I can I will shower her with love and care like what my gay mother's always do to me. May anak na ako lahat-lahat pero they're still treating me like a child. Well, extra special doble love naman ang binibigay nila sa anak ko.

Anak ko!

I walked towards my baby that now playing on the floor. Mama's are spoiling her. Bawat pag-uwi nila dito ay may dala silang mga laruan. Halos tatlong karton na ng mga laruan ang naipon. At hanggang ngayon hirap parin akong pulutin at linisin dahil ag kulit ng anak ko!

“Astra, don't throw your toys away. Mahihirapan ulit si Minee maglinis mamaya,” masuyong saad ko at pinulot ang isang teddy bear sa sahig na tinapon niya.

Her grey eyes stared at me. Damn, lahat nalang! Lahat nalang namana niya kay Yvo! Kaunti lang ang nakuha niya sakin! So unfair! Nakakaselos minsan but I'm kinda thankful. My baby grew up so very beautiful.

Straight short hair, eyebrows, precious grey eyes, long thick lashes, tiny pointed nose, bubbly cheeks, red pouty lips and bunny tooth. Ang cute niya! Her face looks more than her daddy than mine but it's fine. Lalo na ang mga mata niyang inosente.

“Minee! M-minee, muah muah!” she crawled towards me and leave all her toys there. Umupo ako sa sahig at hinintay siyang makarating sa pwesto ko.

Yes, she calls me Minee, not mommy, Mimi, mama or something. Minee talaga. I tried na ayusin pero wala e, she's stubborn just like her mother.

I opened my arms and welcome her with tight and warm hug the moment she got me. She began giggling, non-stop while burying her face on my chest. Inabot ng kamay niya ang mukha ko at sinimulang pisilin ang ilong at pisngi. Napangiwi ako nang kinurot niya ang ibabang labi ko.

Noong una, nahirapan ako, sobra. Lalo na sa mga chismosa at chismoso naming mga kapitbahay. Pero lumipas ang mga buwan, nawala naman 'yon. Lalo na nang nanganak ako, they all gave me a blessing.

I gave birth at a public hospital in town. Mama even took a private room to avoid people's judgments. Alam niya kasing ayoko no'n. I gave birth of Astra in not-so-good condition. She was premature when I gave birth of her. We all thought that she might not be able to cope. But she passed through all of those.

Such a fighter, baby.

Hindi nga ako makapaniwala noong una na nanganak ako. I passed out while giving birth. Mabuti nalang at nakalabas na siya bago ako mahimatay. I was comatose for almost a week. Ang hirap kaya nanganak!

“Minee, muah muah!”

She's turning two years old. And me? I'm turning sixteen. Hindi ko mapaiwas mapaisip. Kamusta na kaya si Azureivo? I miss him so much.

Lihim akong napailing sa iniisip. I'm pretty sure, he have his own family now. Kung wala man, paniguradong may asawa na siya o kaya jowa. Bahala siya sa buhay niya basta akin ang anak ko. Have he forgets about me already?