The sand filters through my fingers as we sit across from each other in an uncomfortable silence. As each grain returns to the shoreline like an hour glass counting the seconds, I feel more and more irritated. I just want to scream, but I repress it and keep fidgeting until he finally speaks.
"It's not what you think."
My eyes dart up to him in an angry glare, "Really? Because what I think is you invited a girl you knew I was worried about the second you thought I wasn't coming without so much as a discussion beforehand." I say through gritted teeth.
His hands grip onto his hair as he sighs, "Y/N, she's just a friend! It isn't like that!"
"Yeah? Well, Morgan was my best friend and you fucked her. Why shouldn't I think you'd fuck your friend?" I spit, the anger creeping out of me as each word passes through my lips.
His blue eyes stare at me with a mix of guilt, shame, and annoyance. I bite down on my lip and look away from him, feeling my own guilt for repeatedly bringing it up. But this, this has caught me so off guard considering he has done absolutely nothing to make me distrust him since we officially became a couple.
Am I the problem? Am I just being insecure?
"Y/N.." I keep my eyes to the waves, "I'm sorry. I should've talked to you about it first."
Part of me is honestly surprised, but I can't shake the paranoia.
I sigh, feeling my heart race in my chest as I think of how to respond. Tears well in my eyes as I process what I'm about to say.
"Maybe we rushed this." I say softly, almost to myself.
He shakes his head with sadness, "What are you taking about? Rush what?" His voice begins to quiver.
"Us." I force it out of my lips, exhaling a shaky sigh.
He moves closer to me, panic capturing his features, "W-what are you saying?"
I squeeze my eyes shut. I can't look at him like this. It hurts.
"I think I need some space.."
"Like-like you need me to leave you alone.. or like you're breaking up with me?"
I want to hold him. I want to tell him I love him. But I am too conflicted.
"Both."
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Playboy (Colby Brock X Reader)
FanfictionColby Brock X Reader One mistake at a party turns into a rollercoaster of emotions as the man you caught feelings for, isn't who you thought he was. He plays his game well, stealing hearts left and right, but will you be the one to beat him? Warning...
