Hold me tighter, pleaseꨄ

✘Chapter Three✘

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❌🛑TRIGGER WARNING🛑❌ (Anxiety attack/mentions starving ones self/Talks about suicide and scars)

Breathing.
A normal thing we have all done since we were infants.
Like walking, it was like second nature.

Which is why the blonde was trying to figure out why it was having such a hard time doing so??
Moments ago, he had woken up from another nightmare, only it wasn't just a nightmare, it was something he actually went through, something that had happened not that long ago.
And the scars that littered his body, only made it a permanent reminder.
He was weak.
He couldn't protect himself, so how the fuck was he gonna become a hero??
His mother was right he wasn't training hard enough...... maybe he needed to eat less, his muscles did seem to be going away.... or was it just him?

No, he was definitely getting weaker!
He needed to step it up, get stronger and become number one!

*Knock* *Knock*

Shit he forgot about Kirishima, and fucking boys night!

"Yo Bakubro, you awake??"

Maybe if he just stayed extremely quite, he would believe he was asleep.
Then once he leaves, he can sneak out and train for a few hours!

"Kacchan might not be here.... "

Shit.
He also forgot Deku was gonna be there!

He really wanted a chance to talk to him..... at least apologize for his pass actions.
Then again would he be able to in front of everyone??
Why does he even want to apologize!?!
Izuku probably won't even want to hear it....yeah here lately Midoriya and him have been.... tapping? with one another when Izuku got to anxious but Katuski wasn't sure if that was because he was worried for Bakugo, or because he was scared the villains may break in.
Though the blonde was sure it was the second reason, after all why the fuck would Midoriya care for his childhood tormentor??
The same person who told him to kill himself in middle school.

"Maybe your right.... Dang I guess he really didn't want to-"

"I'll be out in a fucking second!"

Maybe he could talk to Kirishima about his thoughts, he'd never admit it out loud but he trust the red head with his life and his secrets.
The only other person besides Eijrio he trusted was Izuku, but considering this was about him, he couldn't exactly talk to him about it.

"Oh!"

"Ok, terrific!"

"Hey Midobro, why don't you wait for him, and I'll go help with bringing up snacks?"

"Uhm.... ok. "

Izuku reluctantly agreed, he had a feeling Katsuki wasn't gonna like him being outside his door and just waiting, but the red head didn't give him much choice....

'Shit, shit, shit, shit, shit'

Izuku Midoriya was right outside is door!!
Waiting on him!!

Those same thoughts kept running through Katsuki's mind as he scrambled around the room looking for a shirt to wear.

Why was it so hard to find a damn shirt???!!

Any shirt he picked up was either dirty or uncomfortable!

"Uhm Kacchan?"
"Did you fall back to sleep?"

"No!"
"I'll be out in a moment, just be patient."

Katsuki grumbled, finally finding a sweatshirt to wear.

"Oh, uhm right.... sorry."

Bakugo clicked his tongue, swiftly swinging his door open.

"You don't need to apologize, I was just answering your question."

"Right so-"

"Nerd."

"Sorry... I mean.... uh the floor looks nice. "

Bakugo chuckled at the greenette's horrible save.

"Nice save. "
"C'mon let's go before one of the extras come and drag us to that fucking off brand spiderman's room."

"I'm honestly surprise I was invited."

"None of your friends really talk to me, unless it involves hero stuff y'know?"
"Like what they could do to make their quirk stronger, or how they should upgrade their costumes to help flexibility or their quirk power up better.... "

Midoriya rambled on and on for a good few minutes, about different subjects all whilst Katsuki payed more attention on how the greenette looked.

Over the summer, before the beginning of high school the greenette's look changed a lot.
He had gotten an undercut, and you could definitely tell he had worked out aloooot, Bakugo was trying his best not to drool in all honesty but he'd never say that out loud.
And if his muscles and new hair cut didn't make Katsuki feel butterflies, it was the fact that Izuku had gotten a couple of piercings....an industrial piercing in his left ear, one in each lobe though at the moment he was only wearing a spike in his right ear.
He also had a tongue piercing, but Katsuki couldn't see that.

'When did the nerd get pericings??'
'And why the fuck do I feel like this??'

"Uhmm Kacchan?"

Bakugo snapped out of his thoughts, and hummed at the greenette.

"Are we gonna go in?"

Katsuki's eyes snapped to sero's dorm door that was right in front of him.

How long has he been just standing there??

"Tsk, let's get this night over with."

Bakugo grumbled, walking in soon afterwards.

-💥-

"Duck!"
"Duck!"
"You need to duck!!"

Kirishima shouted.

"I'm trying!!"

Denki whined, though he didn't get any better.

Sero was laying across his bed semi on his phone, and semi watching the zombie game in front of him.
All whilst Bakugo was fidgeting with a rubber band, the yelling, the gun shots, even the blood that kept splattering across the screen was freaking him out.
Memories were resurfacing, and his breathing was beginning to spiral out of control.
Yet no one noticed, except for one person...

Did you guess who?

"Hey.... Kacchan. "

Midoriya had been playing some game on his phone, glancing over at Katuski every once in a while, just to make sure he was still there.
He knew that if the league broke in and kidnapped the blonde, it would be quite obvious.
However that didn't stop him from worrying and feeling anxious....
After a few glances, Izuku started noticing how anxious Bakugo seemed himself.
It took the freckle teen a moment to work up enough courage, but once he realized he probably won't ever build up enough guts to ask Katsuki if he's alright, he decided to distract him.

"What?"

Bakugo hissed, trying to keep his annoyed persona.

"Here listen to this.... "

The greenette exclaimed handing Bakugo one of his ear buds, as he switched to YouTube.
Maybe if he put on some of the music he uses to meditate when he's overly stressed, it'll calm him down a little.

"Tsk, this better not be stupid."

Katsuki grumbled, shoving the ear bud in his ear and waiting for Izuku to find a video.
Despite his rude attitude, he was really grateful that Izuku was distracting him.
Rather he realized it, or not.
Plus he was getting the funny feeling in his stomach and he wasn't sure if he enjoyed it or not, nor did he know what it was.
But he was gonna figure it out.