Hold me tighter, pleaseꨄ

✘Chapter Thirty Nine✘

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⚠⚠❌Trigger Warning❌⚠⚠
(Self harm)

Katsuki wasn't entirely sure how many cuts he had added, he just knew he had been sitting on the bathroom floor for a while.
His brain felt fried yet his mind was still racing, his legs were sore and it seemed like he had no more tears left.
He was drain out.

Everything hurt and despite wanting some sort of comfort he felt like he didn't deserve it.
Eventually he got up and cleaned up his mess, wiped away any remaining tears and crawled into his bed.
Hoping the darkness would consume him and he wouldn't have to leave his bed ever again.

*Buzz* *Buzz*

Well that's what he was hoping for....

Aizawa (Dad?)

Are you sure your only sick?
Or are you depressed?
It's ok if you just can't tonight, we can move it to another week.
If you need to talk, me and Hizashi are right here.

5:20

I'm assuming you fell asleep, so when you wake up text me please.

6:43

He was at it for almost an hour and a half....
He didn't even think he had cut that much.

Should he text him.....
He may be worried sick if he doesn't...

'Like anyone would be worried about you!'
'That's laughable'

B: I still should send him a text, or he might try to come see me.

'True I guess.'

I am sick, I promise.. maybe a bit sad but I'll get over it.

6:50

Ok, well I texted Kirishima to make you some soup.
I would go down there and take care of you myself, however I'm on patrol and the same with Hizashi.
But he send you his love and so do I.
Get some rest, I'll see you on Monday.

6:52

Shit he'll have to see Kirishima....
Whatever if the red head tried to say anything the blonde would simply ignore him and even yell if he has to.

K.

6:52

That text seemed to mean, especially to people who seemed to actually be trying....
The blonde bit his bottom lip for a moment, he didn't usually care how his responses sounded.
However he didn't want them getting suspicious nor did he want it to seem like he was pushing them away.

Thanks ig... Good luck on patrol.
Tell pa I said good luck as well.

7:02

That should do.

*Knock* *Knock*

"Katsuki?"

That wasn't Kirishima's voice!!
That was Izuku's!!
And he called him Katsuki??

Crimson eyes met meek Emerald ones.

"Hi."
"Please don't be mad at Kirishima, I begged him to let me take you the soup."

Bakugo didn't say anything for a minute, instead he focused on sitting up with out letting any winces or any signs showing that he is in pain.

"Here, it's beef flavor. "

'Don't eat that!'

B: 'I won't.
He'll leave soon, calm down.'

"Thanks.... "

The greenette nodded his head, before stepping back a little fiddling with his fingers and looking down at the floor.

"Are you alright?"

Katsuki found himself asking, despite himself,
but it didn't seem like Izuku was leaving anytime soon.

"Are you?"

Katsuki felt himself choke on air.

"I'm fine, just sick."
"Thanks for uh the soup. "

Bakugo knew he wasn't a shitty liar, he had to hide things his whole life.
However when it came to the greenette rather or not he remembered him, the blonde had a difficult time lying to him.
Maybe that's why he pushed him away through out his childhood, cause he knew Izuku would be the only one who he couldn't hide it from.

"Was there anything else or are ya gonna just keep gawking at me?"

"Oh... uhm... right.. sorry. "

Despite his apology and the blonde's harsh words, the greenette still stood there.

"Just fucking tell me what you want already. "

'Yes, be harsher!'
'Be meaner!'

"I just wanted to see if you would like to hang out with me and Shoto this weekend?"
"We're going to get some lunch, and you seem to be the only person I haven't fully gotten to know yet so I-"

"No."

The greenette quickly shut his mouth, his whole mood souring from the rejection.

"Oh ok.... sorry. "

"I uhh hope you feel better. "

Midoriya tried to smile though anyone with good eye sight could see it was strain.

Katsuki only hummed, a slight headache returning as the idiotic voice in his head screamed at him to keep pushing the other away.

It was safe to say the blonde felt completely useless and trapped.

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