After meeting her ex

Goodbye

Carina's POV

It’s been two weeks since Andrea died and it’s been two weeks since the babies were born. Right now I am getting ready for his funeral but I keep having to redo my makeup because I can’t stop crying. I can’t stop thinking about how he died. He was all alone. My thoughts were interrupted by Maya walking in “Hey baby are you ready?” she asked in a soft tone. I couldn’t help but let out a little more tears. “H-how ca-an anyone be ready to bury their baby brother?” I said in between tears. Maya didn’t say anything else, she just wrapped her arms around me and gave me a tight hug which is something I’ve been needing.

“I know you don’t want to but we have to” Maya said, giving me a kiss on the cheek “But why did he have to die? What did he ever do to deserve to die the way he did” I said, crying more. “I don’t know my love god just takes people with no explanation” Maya said trying to comfort me but I just don’t understand. “Come on, let's get today over with.” Once we got to the place my heart broke even more. I never thought he’d die the day I have my babies. I thought he’d be here with me and being the best uncle to our babies. “Hey Carina I’m sorry for your loss” Andy said, giving me a hug. Andy and my brother didn’t know each other much but she was still very kind.

While they were doing the ceremony for my brother I couldn’t stop crying and I had Maya on one side giving me a hug and trying to calm me down and on the other side I had Arizona rubbing my back just being there for me. Ever since Arizona came back to Seattle we have become close again but only in a friendly way. Me and Maya were thinking about asking her and Callie to be the godmother of our kids.After a while I had to go up there to say a few words for my brother before we took him to the cemetery but I was too zoned  out here Maya and Arizona calling my name. I finally heard them and  got up and walked to the front of the church.

I took a few deep breaths before starting “Most of you didn’t know my brother. But he was an amazing person. He was one of my favorite people, he was someone I trusted so much. Right now As I am speaking I am remembering all our moments together when I came to Seattle and back when we were both in italy. Before my mom died she would always say we were two halves of one whole. On christmas we didn’t have a lot of money so my parents were able to get only one gift and the got a pair of roller skates to my brother but he tried to five them to me so I took the left one and he put on the right one and we lifted our other legs up like flamingos and we skated like that.

I remember when I first came to seattle me and my ex girlfriend were making out on the couch and he was living with her but I didn’t know he knew her and when I realized it was him we had a whole fight but we were speaking italian so my girlfriend had no Idea what we were talking about and she tried stopping us us but we didn’t then he finally left. There was another time we were arguing about something else but I can’t remember what and I remember telling him that when he was little I wanted to put a pillow on his face then I said “it’s not too late you know.” I am getting flashbacks of every moment me and my brother had and I realized that he was my best friend and he was supposed to be there for me when my kids were born.

He was on his way to the hospital when he died. Andrea died exactly three minutes after my son was born. My wife and I decided to honor his memory by naming our daughter Andrea and when we were younger and we would talk about our future we would talk about what we would name our kids and he said that if he ever had  a son he would name him Bruno so we named our son Bruno. My kids didn’t get to meet their zio (Uncle) but I know they would have loved him and he would love them. My brother was a kind young man and I’m sad that he is gone and I am hurt that we weren't able to become the amazing father and amazing husband and amazing doctor he wanted to be. Che tu possa riposare in pace fratellino mio ti amo tanto e mi mancherai e prometto di mantenere sempre vivi i nostri ricordi.

A/N: sorry I didn't post yesterday I was really busy but here is today's chapter I'll do one tonight and small video of Carina and Andrew at the tope. hope you like
-Nautica♡