The red means i love you| rants (1)

Days 10, 11, 12, 13, 14

So this hasn't been updated for a bit but my week has been kinda crazy so this week is bible school for the church I go too and it has been pretty fun tomorrow is the last day of it tho today I almost had a panic attack at this event because somehow I saw something that triggered me into almost relapsing I didn't tho but one of these days I forget which one I got in an argument with my parents like they were basically fucking interrogating me talking about how they thought I was hiding something and for context they can see everything on my phone through an app they have on theirs like for all I know they could be seeing me write this from their phone and now I'm pretty sure my mom and dad went through my texts with my girlfriend and for a bit there I had them convinced we were just really close friends but I think they know we're dating and I have homophobic parents so if my suspicion is correct and they did look then they fuvking found out I'm a lesbian and genderfluid so that's fucking great love that I am a terrible fucking liar I broke down in front of my parents it was so embarrassing I hated it I feel myself pulling away from my girlfriend after that fight with my parents and I don't know what to do but on a good note I found out that me, my mom, my brother, and my aunt are going down too Pittsburgh and staying there next Friday so I'm excited but we are going on July 1st and that is when stranger things s4 volume 2 releases so yea I'm excited to watch it but scared because apparently there is going to be some death(s) so I'm nervous also on a good note I have not had any nightmares in a week which I'm very thankful that I haven't