The red means i love you| rants (1)

So update on life

So here's a little update on my life

This Saturday I have a parade for privacy reasons i won't be telling you were it is at but I do have another parade on Sunday as well and that is at Kennywood and that's like three hrs away from where I live so I'm gonna be gone all day like I have to be at the school by like 7:00 a.m. so fun ig 👍 also my girlfriends mental health is crashing and I don't know what to do and she also has an eating disorder and every time she tries eating she gets sick they thought they we're getting better but turns out it was just getting worse I mean I have tried to starve myself but I've never been able to last more than two day cause my mother notices and gets worried and makes me eat but with her from what I've herd her mother doesn't give a shit about their mental health so yea idk what to do I've been trying to focus on the good but it hasn't been going so well I'm too focused trying to help and care for everyone else that I've completely forgotten to help myself at all my dad is sick which means he's going to be in a very shitty mood but basically every time he talks he shouts and raises his voice which is one of the thing I really really hate also at my last parade I forgot there was a firework show and if you didn't know loud noises are what mainly triggers my panic attacks and I'm not sure if it is a response from how much I got yelled at as a kid that I don't like loud noises or if it is my sensory issues but it was one of those two and the fireworks started before I could get my noise canceling headphones out of my backpack so when my friend notices how much they were bothering me she took the headphones that she had around her neck and put them over my ears and held me till they were over I'm pretty sure that's the nicest thing someone's ever done for me also I'm pretty sure I'm the reason a girl had a panic attack that day also my friend almost passed out that was not good at all so yea ALSO my birthday passed and for privacy reasons I will not be saying how old I am but for my birthday my mom and dad got me an electric guitar and my nana got me a Walkman which were two of the things I really wanted and my Mimi and pap got me some stuff for my guitar and a stranger thing hoodie I also got some stuff from my girlfriend and my cousin and this friend of my moms so I had a good birthday other than that not much really happened:)