The red means i love you| rants (1)

Me and my girlfriend

So here's how me and my girlfriend were before we started dating

So for context me and my girlfriend were best friends for 2+ years before we started dating and I also went through a journal from second grade and apparently we were friends like what I don't remember that but then again that was a long time ago so but like I was saying we were close for a while until I realized I like her at the beginning of school two years ago and I knew she wasn't straight but like she had just gotten out of a relationship before school had started and I thought she would never like me so a couple months later I lose my feelings for her after thinking she would never like me well mid school year my dumbass starts to fall for her again but this time I loved her I knew the feelings weren't leaving this time and I didn't know what to do until one day I walk into school and me and her are walking to class together also for context I was not at school the day before and she says a lot had happened the other day I asked what happen and she says that all our friends knew who she like we we're friends with the same people so we get into the class she standing at my desk and she said she liked a girl I go asking what class she was in she was in our class I go naming every girl in our class the last ones left was me and her I knew it couldn't be her because like well yea and the moment I realized I was the one that she liked I didn't know what to say or do cause I was so happy and scared at the same time I wanted to tell her i like her back but i didn't want anyone to overhear me so I just said something like it was fine or something and we go on it's never brought up again until that summer I was on a call with a friend of ours and she said that if I would move that my now girlfriend would move with me I think she said something about Australia I think or something like that now are friend knew that she like me and asked if I liked her back I just said I didn't know cause I was scared of telling her nothing else is brought up that summer till now that following school year I go cyber I don't see her in person I get my girlfriends discord she didn't have a phone at the time she had a computer and we kept on texting and texting and one day I decided to tell her I like her I just asked if she still liked me and she said yes and I was like I've like you for a long time blah blah and we stayed friends for months we had not seen each for 9 months yes I counted and I was going shopping with my cousin and her boyfriend and I had to go to this store first we walked in and there I see my girlfriend and her mom talking to my mom I ran up and hugged her then she started going to a youth group thing at my church so saw each other sometimes time skip it is may 7th of this year and she invited me to her house for her birthday so I went now her birthday was on a Saturday and the owl house episodes were still coming out so we watched the new episode together she was sitting beside me and she put her head on my shoulder and my breathing was so slow I couldn't breathe cause my heart was fucking racing like it beating out of my chest a little while later after the episode was over she asked if I wanted to go outside so we go outside and she asked me to be her girlfriend and of course I said yes because I mean I was practically in love with her so yea and in the mix of this I forgot to mention that this past Valentine's Day she me to be her valentine 🥹