The red means i love you| rants (1)

Idek anymore

8/17/22
I don't know how much more I can take of like I'm so fucking close to relapsing I was basically having a mental breakdown I couldn't stop crying no matter how hard I fucking tried to I just want to kms I feel like shit I also feel like my girlfriend hates not sure why tho but I don't feel like myself at all if I even know what that feels like but I seriously don't know how much more I can take of this also this week and 2 or 3 days next week is band camp for me so I'm stuck with the rest of silks that keep fucking fighting with each other their give me a headache I don't know what to fucking do