Dear diary,
Something I often write to myself is "what friends?"
When I talk
When I sit
When I walk with them
It occurs to me that they are not my friends.
They emit no real feeling worthy for me to actually want to continue a friendship with them.
It's the kind of experience when you're with a group of people and everything but yourself becomes dark and you realize you are detached from them
From their energy
From their world
From their friendship
They are not my friends
So what friends?
I have none as far as I'm concerned.
(A/N: I wrote and posted this a year and a half ago so looking at it I feel a little embarrassed.
If your wondering I didnt stay friends with those people long, I made other friends but once again it didn't last but I did make some other kinds of friendships, I met many other people that I got along well with and I've made some happy memories with and glad I met them.
I recently just started using wattpad again so this entry and the one after this were from almost last year. A lot has changed, thank you for reading!)
