Unconditionally

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Ayana
I woke up to find my side of the bed empty and my tummy was growling like there is no tomorrow. I woke up grabbed his boxers and hoodie and walked to the kitchen to find him warning up up some fancy food.
Mesuli: You up
Me: Yeah
Mesuli: how you feeling?
Me: not bad and you?
Mesuli: Good. Come you must be famished.
I walked to the bar stool and sat. We ate in silence each of us in they own thoughts. The food was amazing and the dessert was to die for.
Me: So what duties does the Queen have?
Mesuli: I have no idea, mom will have to walk you through that.
I nodded and he looked at me.
Me: what?
Mesuli: Just happy.
Me: Glad you happy
Mesuli: are you not happy?
Me:  I am its just the going home part. I haven't seen my family in 3 years. And now I come with these big news that am marrying into royalty last time i was married...
I kept quiet and looked at the cake I was having.
Me: Am not okay with this
Mesuli: I know but its one of those things that we have to do
Me: I know
Mesuli: Your phone been ringing none stop.
Me: Oh, let me check in with the girls.
I texted In the group that we have that am fine and sent them a picture that shows the ring on my finger immediately they called screaming
Tumi: Oh am matron
Zizo: isnt that married people job
Me: You can be my matron Tumi
Zizo: And Mina?
Me: You can be my bridesmaid
Zizo: When the wedding
Me: I haven't planned anything but am going home later tonight so his family can come through tomorrow.
Zizo: You have to resign at the bar. Ill type the letter and give to Bra k
Me: Thank you.
Tumi: ill call in sick so I can go home with you.
I felt my tears threaten.
Me: You would?
Tumi: I know you have never spoke of home before but am here for you. So Ill come with just so you can have a familiar face.
Me: Thank you.
Mesuli: Its highly appreciated. Ill ask my friend to write you a sick note for work and have Jo deliver it.
Tumi: Thank you. Now let me go pack for us
Mesuli: Oh its cool. Send me your sizes ill get the bags ready for you guy
Zizo: Now why didn't I think of going with you, buka manje sithola a new wardrobe.
We all laughed.
Mesuli: I can loan you a car to drive you to work
The screams were deafening. I spoke with them for awhile when he was busy on his laptop then bid my goodbye and walked to where his sitting wrote my size and Tumi size on a piece of paper since he was on the phone. I went to shower than when done wore his gown alone and sat on the bed and dial mom number.
Mom: Hello
Me: Mama
Mom: Ayana
Me: Yes
I heard her breathe in relief.
Mom: You alive?
Wow 3 years without seeing your first born and the first thing you ask is that.
Me: Yes
Mom: How are you?
Me: Am good and you
Mom: haven't been well. Things are a mess with your father dead, your brother arrest and your sister pregnancy. We struggling.
Me: Am sorry to hear that
Mom: Its okay. Its nice to hear your voice
Me: Oh
Mom: I know I wasn't a mother to you but you were a strong child and I sent you away because I didn't want you to grow in this.
Me: mama you didnt send me away, you sold me off to a cruel man that raped me and beat me up and used me like I was some piece of trash that he...
I kept quiet and took a deep breath.
Mom: I just wanted what best for you
Me: ma kids at 18 who matriculate with 4 distinctions go to university when they have done so well for themselves not married off
Mom: He was...
Me: trusting a man like that to live up to his agreement is like trusting a wolf to not chow a deer
Mom: Am sorry
Me: Its fine mom. Am coming home tonight.
Mom: Really? He allowed you.
Me: Am not married to Mdu anymore.
Mom: Thank God.
I kept quiet and tried to breathe.

Mesuli
I stood by the door. Half of me wanted to console her but half of me wanted her to face her fears. So I stood there and listened.

Ayana
Mom: you there?
Me:am here
Mom: Am sorry
Me: That not why I called ma. Am coming over tonight because tomorrow I have people coming over tomorrow and I need you to tell umalume this time around I want a real lobola.
Mom: You getting married?
Somehow she was happy.
Me: Yes
Mom: Congratulations baby. This is all I wanted for you a real marriage. I know your father and I did a fucked up job before but am glad you fixing your life.
Me: Ma
Mom: Yes
Me: Send me a text via this number and let me know you brothers agree to be my spokesperson in all this and I wire you money to help you get things sorted out.
Mom: Thank you Ayana.
Me: Ill see you later on. Oh ma, am coming with a friend is that okay?
Mom: Yes, ill prepare your old room for you. No one sleeps in it. It just the way you left....
Me: Thanks. Bye.
I hang up and sat on that bed and closed my eyes for a minute collecting my breathing.
I need to tell Melusi about my past but how am I even going to start the topic? My mom sold me off to a guy hoping I get a better life but instead it was the worse 3 years ever and when I told her she chased me away while my relatives thinks am studying aboard.!!
" lord give me strength "
I opened my eyes to find him kneeling in front of me looking at me with a grin on his face.
Melusi: You want to know why I love you?
Me: Yes
Melusi: no matter how much you been hurt you still have love within you and you still give love.
I looked at him.
Me: I was married before
Melusi: I know, Jo did a background check on you.
Me: Oh
Melusi: I know your past and It never changed how I feel about you but made me love you more. Through all the shit you been through yet here you are right here loving again. Giving me a chance to show you that there is more to life. Giving me hope, giving me a reason to wake up everyday. So don't ever think your past makes you less of a woman but it makes you the strongest woman I know.
I wiped away the tears in my eyes.
Me: I never want to be in that position ever again
Melusi: Am not saying we not going to go through things as a couple but Ill do my best to don't harm you or make you feel like less of a woman.
Me: That all i need....