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Chapter eighteen : Try a little misery

That night, i had dreamt of steven harrassing me, he was trying to choke me and right before i fainted, he would let go of me, let me breath in and then repeat the same process, i woke at 5 AM , not knowing what to do, i was afraid, i wanted to cry but the tears wouldn't come out. After a while, i decided to go to the balcony again, i stood there for a long time thinking about whether telling Cassie or not, about avoiding Laken or calling him ...things were really complicated, i had no idea how Cassie would react, after all, she loved him, no, she loves him. these thoughts kept dwelling in my mind, imagining every possible situation, until the first rays of sunlight started appearing, making the sky look shades of pink and orange, slowly, smoothly subsiding to yellow and blue, even air smelt fresher, it was different, it was still pure . The day seemed to be starting perfectly, i only hoped for it to continue like that. I checked the clock on the wall noticing i still had some time to spend before school, so i started making breakfast for esteban, his dad and I.

When i finished cooking it, i headed upstairsto call, starting with Teban, i knocked on his door, he opened it quickly looking fresh and awake.

"Mornin', breakfast's ready, is your dad awake ?"

"haven't seen him, i'll check" he answered

after knocking on his door several times, he opened it, and found everything in place like nobody slept there. I looked at Esteban, seeing him kind of deceived that he hadn't had much time with his dad, i suppose, you suppose correctly

" let's go eat, or else we'll be late" i said, taking him by the hand.

the whole meal went on good, a bit silent than previous days, but can i blame him ?

When he parked his blue car, in the school's parking, we had to go seperate ways, because we had different classes, mine was with Cassie, i found her waiting near mt locker, " Sorry mel, i was supposed to pick up , i totally forgot " she started, oh yeah ! i forgot too...

" no worries, i've forgotten too, so what's up ?" should i tell her ?

"not much, the usual, what about you ?" she asked.

Yes, i have to be honest...

" Cassie, something happened yesterday... i'm sorry, steven made a move on me " i blurted out quickly

"Are you kidding me ? why would he do that ? he knows you're my friend" she said confused

"I'm really sorry, i knew you'll be hurt but i had to tell you, he tried to kiss me and i was only able to escape with Laken's help "

" there's no way, he would do this, with no reason, you must have done something, you flirted or i don't know what else "

I was stunned by what i heard, how could she say that, of course i wouldn't, she was supposed to support me, to ask how i have been since what he's done, just when i was going to respond. Steven chose that moment to pass through the corridor. His look , when he looked at me was full of hate, i thought may be he would ask for forgiveness, may be he was just drunk or lost or even stoned, every single one of thos was better than being aware of what he has done, but no, all i saw was hate, and i was scared, scared of what he could do for revenge, of what he could say. His face held a red mark on his cheek, probably Laken's doing...that bruise was the only relief i felt, it reminded me of the help i received, the friend i had, i should call him after all...

when steven passed us, i looked at Cassie, right when i was about to defend myself from all the accusations she made, i stopped.

the hateful glares i received weren't only from steven...she blamed me for everything, probably even her break up with him

" I trusted you, how could you betray me " she accused

" Cassie, don't say that, i would never-" i started , but couldn't finish my sentence. She was already gone.

At that very moment,i wished i had stayed at the house, i wished the day was still going on as it started, but no, it was getting worse within each second.

The worst thing, was that i had started remembering all the times, i had talked to Steven, tried to check if i had ever given him any kind of hope or sign that i was interrested, but no, the only time i had grown closer with him was when he borrowed bike for a bit, and it was all.

Entering class, was even more difficult, air was electric, if looks could kill, i would have been dead by the minute, i chose a seat at the back of the class, behind everyone, and even with all my efforts, after 20 minutes of class, i was already doodling on my notebook, feeling miserable.

fortunately, the day went on pretty fastly, i didn't bother re-try talking to Cassie, i didn't see why i should apologize, i've been attacked, she should have supported me, not accuse, plus i had some classes with Esteban, at the exit, i saw a familiar bike, Laken !

he waved at me, and i walked towards him, Esteban was right beside me, while Cassie was few feets away, throwing glares here and there.

"hi "

" hey, i called you yesterday, i as worried about you " he began, Esteban cleared his throat, catching Laken's attention, before saying

" hi ,i'm Esteban. Amelia's boyfriend." this day's only getting worse

" well, since you didn't answer, i taught something happened again"

then remembering Steven's face, i smiled, "No, i think you took really good care of the situation, unfortunately it didn't go so well with me", noticing Esteban's tense expression and cassie glares again, i decided to finish this conversation as fast as possible,

"I'm sorry Laken, i need to go, but we'll talk later, i'll call you", his expression seemed to be saying, you are going to be ignoring me again !?

so i reassured him, " I promise, i will call you", he finally seemed to be believing me, he got up on his bike, and went away. Right then, Esteban and I headed to the car .

Before starting the car, he told me :

"i'm sorry, i shouldn't have interupted your conversation...today wasn't a good day" absolutely not a good day !

" it's alright, aren't you my boyfriend ? " i said joking.

"of course, i am " he answered in a serious tone, holy shit, did he just say i was his girlfriend ?!!

This day held something good after all, something very good...