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Chapter Twenty five : Try a little Birthday

   "You never really know what you have until you lose it." I always hated that quote, it makes me feel like i was not grateful enough for what i have or had. Unfortunately it never appeared to be wrong, along with the fact that "you know your real friends in times of trouble." I missed my bestfriend very much, but i couldn't just let go of everything and talk to her, sometimes i just look at our seats or some random place in high school and i wonder how she's been doing .
But whenever i start having these  thoughts, i try to dismiss it and do something new or passionating. Since i got used to live in Esteban's house . I just officially started calling it home and also roaming around is not awkward anymore, playing piano has been something i do very often, cooking too is now part of my daily life although we brought delivery every now and then, or, well very often too. Composing melodies was something i never did nor thought i could do but once you get used to making something with your own too hands you can't just stop doing it , for sure it is very empowering. Other than that, my spanish hasn't really evolved, it is still very basic, enough to have good marks in the subject though.
That day was my birthday and it was very ironic to actually feel nostalgic of what i used to have, last year, my birthday passed like any other classic birthday, a surprise party has been thrown by my brother with the help of Cassie and Vanessa. He was very emotional that day, proud and tearful but still very protective because Cassie had invited guys from our high school, plus my birthday coincided with a hard part of my life after a break up. However, until a month ago i never thought it would go any differently, but here i am with a complete different perspective . Obviously, Caleb sent me a message first in the morning but i hadn't told Esteban about it. It felt weird to just tell him , 'hey babe, today's the day i turn eighteen'. But i knew i had to tell him, i was just waiting for a good opportunity.
  Chemistry class was awfully slow that afternoon, it was the last class for the day and Esteban was sitting next to me quite attentive to what the teacher said. When the bell rang, instead of rushing out of the classroom like every single person, Cassie started coming my way and i became very nervous.
"Hey ! " she started.
"Hi"
"I..um how is it going"
"What do you want Cassie" i asked slightly angry at her.
"I wanted to wish you a happy birthday"

"Thank you " i answered while i took a glance at Esteban, he was staring likehe was not believing i hadn't tell him such thing, but well it's true but it wasn't quietly what i had intented to do.

"let's go have lunch ?" i asked him , with Cassie still in front of me. he nodded, and in no time we were already out of the building

Silence had taken place, i didn't dare say anythingto explain myself feeling like anything i could say would only worsen my situation...

Suddenly, he started " so did you plan on telling me anytime soon or you just didn't want to mention it ?" 

I immediately stopped walking, took his hand in mine and tried to explain myself, " Of course i was going to tell you, i just found it very weird ", he looked at me for a while then smiled and said " okay then what do you want to do for your birthday ?"

"Nothing special just a movie night would be great !" 

"No, you know what ? let's go to that Chinese restaurant we went to the first time we went out together, what do you say ?" He asked

i wanted to say no, but figured i would push it too far thinking about the fact that i had just hid that fact from him, making a concession wouldn't be so big of a deal, And eating at the same restaurant would be very romantic too wouldn't it ? 

"Yes sure, let's go " 

 The restaurant wasn't far from school, we went there walking.

Sitting in the same place were we were few weeks ago, has been very nice, warm and made us feel like this was now our place, it belonged to us along with the memories we made there. While waiting for our food, i went to the lady's room to rearrange my hair, i always had this habit to think my hair was all over the place when it was not, when i cam back, the waiter was disposing the plates , He seemed to be giving Esteban side glances, and i realized he felt it too because of his uncomfortable attitude, i sat in front of him and held his hand trying to show the guy he was with me, which he took quite good, he just smiled at us and turned around after he asked us if there was anything anything else we wanted. The whole time, although i was not used to not see my brother and best friend on my birthday, all i felt was happiness, his presence was enough for me.

Later on, we were in the car, on our way home, chatting nonchalantly, once i was in front of  the door, i started looking for my keys, but Esteban had already started to unlock the door, talking about how i was always loosing my stuff in my bag, I entered in, while he closed it behind us, i started heading towards the couch, when a whole bunch of people came up from behind it and near the long curtains,  shouting "Happy birthday !!" 

I noticed Caleb and Vanessa first, and went hugging them, i truly had missed them. Laken was there too, along with..Cassie.

Not paying attention to why she was there, i turned to look at Esteban, he had this adorable loving stare i couldn't resist, all i could do was hug him tightly, and whispered a thank you...