I hate that I love you...

Chapter 25- Pain

I can't wait to eat my heart out on thanksgiving. I know it's not for a couple more days but I'm hongry🫶🏽

Veronica's POV...

My heart is shattered.

I thought it wouldn't happen again, I thought I was safe from heart break.

Apparently not.

I've had two in the same year.

By guys who I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. Pathetic of me to think that especially with Archie. But I never expecting it from Jughead, I thought we were happy.

I've cried my eyes out for the past two days and I haven't gotten out of bed.

Why would I?

Nothing is worth getting up anymore.

It's hurts, everything hurts.

While I was heart broken when Archie cheated on me, this feels different. It feels like the end of the world. I can't fathom what I'm going to do now that I don't have Jughead. He was apart of my everyday routine and now he's no longer here.

It's his fault.

Betty and Archie's.

And partly mine.

It's my fault because I trusted him, I put my all into our relationship, I wasn't careful, I didn't protect my feelings like I should have, I put my heart on the line and in the end it came back to bite me.

If only I was smart enough to see it coming.

I could've saved myself so much heartache.

I regret coming back.

I shouldn't have came back to this school.

It seems as if Riverdale high and Riverdale in general is a cursed town. I was safe from everything in the comfort of my home. My heart and my mind was safe. The minute I stepped out everything went downhill faster than I can imagine.

Ring... Ring... Ring...

I quickly wiped my eyes and picked up my phone, seeing that it was the prison. I quickly answered and waited to hear my mom's voice.

"Veronica?" I hear her ask.

"Hey mom" I smile hearing her voice.

"Are you okay? You sound like you've been crying" worry fills her voice and I could tell she knew something was wrong.

"Everything has fallen apart" I start to sob.

"Veronica honey what's wrong?" She asks, I can hear the frown.

"Jughead and I broke up, well I broke up with him and I can't handle it" I wipe my eyes and take a deep breath so that I could get the words out.

"What happened? I thought you guys were happy?" She questions.

"We were but on the night of my birthday Archie kissed me out of the blue. Jughead saw and he believed that I kissed Archie. Then he went on and said that I was just like dad, maybe even worse than him" I explained.

"Oh no honey, I'm so sorry. I really thought you two were perfect for each other. He doesn't deserve your time and love" she says trying to make me feel better.

"Thanks mom, what did you call about?" I ask.

"Oh it's nothing important..." she trails off.

"Whatever it is I can handle it, nothing can ruin my year anymore than it already is" I tell her.

"Honey I'm not getting out anytime soon" it gets silent on the line as she wait for my reaction.

"What do you mean? How long?" I question.

"Their saying anywhere from 20 years to 45 for being an accomplice" she says reluctantly and my heart shatters all over again.

"We can fight it! We can't just let them keep you locked in there" I shout feeling angry. My mom only helped to protect us from my dad. It's not fair that she had to be held liable for his wrong doings.

"Veronica I tried, there's nothing else we can do" she sounds defeated and exhausted.

"But it's not fair! I can't loose you too mom!" I feel myself getting emotional all over again.

"You won't loose me Mija, I promise. I could get out early for good behavior and I'll be home in no time" she reassured me, but there was nothing assuring about her words. I've learned that all promises are empty ones. There is no guarantee that she'll be out early, there was no guarantee that Jughead wouldn't break my heart, there was no guarantee that Betty would be a good best friend, there was no guarantee that Archie would have loved me the way I loved him.

Nothing is ever guaranteed.

Everything you do is a risk and sometimes risks backfire.

"Okay" I respond feeling drained both mentally and emotionally.

"I love you very much Mija" she says.

"I love you too" I say back as the call disconnects.

I stare up at my ceiling and a sob escapes my lips.

My life is in shambles, I said this year would be different. I said it would be better, but it isn't, somehow it's becoming worse.

I can only take so much before I've reached my point and I'm dangerously close to it. After the news my mom told me I don't know what to do. I can't help her anymore, I've tried. When she's given up I know there's nothing I can do.

Everything is so fucked up.

I need a break.

Not like the one I had last year or after Archie and I broke up I need an actual break. One far from Riverdale where I can clear my head. I know the exact place to go too.

I quickly pulled a suit case from my closet and began filling it with clothes. I wasn't sure how long I would be away, but I knew that it was going to be for a bit.
After packing simple outfits I packed my essentials and some other items.

I cleaned up the apartment then packed my car for the drive.

I looked at the Pembrooke one more time before hopping in my car and headed over to Pop's. I had ordered something for the road seeing as I needed energy to drive. I walked in and grabbed my order, lucky for me none of my friends or anyone I knew was in there so I could make an easy escape.

Once on the road I drove in complete silence, getting lost in my own thoughts. I was surrounded by tall green woods and a narrow road.

Just by that I knew I was close to my destination.

Only a few minutes had passed and there it was my hideaway until further notice. Immediately I grabbed my bags and grabbed the key from underneath the mat. The door creaked open and I took in the fresh pine and cinnamon scent.

Home sweet home.

Short chapter I know. I didn't say where Veronica went just because I wanted to see if you guys could guess. Hope you enjoyed❤️