God you're all I want
My only desire is to walk with you
I want to hold Tour hand though I don't always stand
I fall a lot, I slip and stumble and trip and become humbled
I know I sin everyday
It's a battle that I'm losing miserably at
In fact
I haven't won in a long time
But I think it's about time to come back to You
I've been straying for too long
I'm not strong I'm weak
I'm meek and unable to live a life worthy of anything without You
Your help, guidance, your love, kindness
So pick me up again and please mend me
I've got cuts and bruises, I've been used by my sin to pleasure myself and I've been turned helpless
I can't take it anymore
I'm sore and can't take any more of my sin that's been eating away and feeding each day on my soul
My soul that You created
You made it!
How could I let sin destroy it?
I've been rendered worthless and useless
By myself
But with Your help
You can make me whole
Restore my soul and save me from this hole
This deep hole that I've dug
I made it
It's my doing, my handiwork
I'm not proud of it
In fact I hate it
But it's there and I'm stuck in it
I stretch my arms up high toward the sky and pray for a rescue
A miracle
Anything to aid me in my helpless state
Is it too late?
Have I sunk too far?
I can hardly see the stars
Their usual bright glow is so low I don't know where I am
Am I dead, have I died?
Has my sin taken over my whole body, slowly pulling my lowly self down until hit the bottom of a pit?
I admit it sounds scary
Like a sy-fy movie where the bad guy is a monster created by a mad doctor
But that sounds like me
I've made a monster of my sin
I've fed it over and over again with attention and eventually the depression sets in and I can't stand to look at face anymore
My face is the face of a person who nailed the Son the to cross
Two parts of a cross made one bridge that I could cross
From death to life from darkness to light
But each time I sin I'm re-nailing Him
He already paid for my mistakes but my sin drives in the stake that holds him on the cross
So how do I come back?
I feel like I should start all over I'm so off track on a detour that for sure I'm too lost to find my way back
But that's where You come in
You take my hand and guide me along
I said I wasn't strong, You are
You'll all mighty and powerful
When I start to sag behind you'll give me a gentle pull
Telling me to stay on the path
Trust the One with my life's map
He's got the directions
And my sins deception isn't fooling me anymore
I used to be its tool but now I'm its boss
It can't touch me when I'm walking with God
When we're together I'm sure that I'll never be abandoned or forgotten
So now
I'm with God
And He's with me
I'm out of the hole
And have been made whole
Are you feeling like me?
Trapped?
Well time to come clean and be free
There's no fee or condition to being a Christian
But it is a mission like impossible to try and be alone walking this earth
I hope you come to find your worth from my God who saves
God bless and have a good day
