Destiny (Raulson Fanfic)

Chapter 24.5: Second Chance

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Sarah's POV

Zach was admitted to the hospital, Lily and I were guarding him that night; waiting for him to wake up.

I... still couldn't believe it. The person who completely accepted my darkness is gone and aside from that I can't look at Lily... I betrayed her trust. I act mindlessly letting my emotions take over myself while talking to her. That should've not happen. It's... wrong.

I was just there; sitting beside Zach's bed; holding his hand caressing it as I was looking at the wall; taking secret glances at Lily. Her eyes were red and swollen; she's been crying the whole night after Charm died. On the other hand I feel numb, my mind's scattered around the place. But one thing is for sure that I felt guilty and whenever I see her like this it's stabbing my heart with thousands of daggers and I felt like my body is being pierced with needles paralyzing me on my seat as I look at those sky-blue eyes that were once full of life and happiness that now reflects a heart that spirals into the abyss, shattering every inch of her confidence replacing it with confusion and fear.

I squeezed Zachary's hand as I collect myself and stood from my seat to walk closer to her.

But as I was going closer to her she stared at me and went towards the door; locking it as she leaned her back on the wall. I walk closer and stood right in front of her; she staring at me waiting for me to say something.

"Lily... I... I'm sorry" I said softly as I felt my body collapse towards her; I embraced her tightly wrapping my arm around her waist as my other hand was at the back of her neck; I rested my chin on her shoulder as I kept on whispering the words I'm sorry in her ears; my voice was already cracking, she cried harder; her knees seems like it was losing its balance, her knees buckling under her good thing that I was embracing her catching her before her knees reached the hospital's cold white floor I held her up like a dead weight, she didn't say a word her whimpers and her cry disable her to utter a single word.

I felt terrible; I'm such a fucking horrible monster.

I broke her down. Tear her world apart, I fucked up big time. Shattering her heart and mine's

She felt really weak; probably from all the pain that she's feeling in her heart right now. I carried her just as a groom would carry her bride; she lay cradled against my chest as her tears soak my shirt.

I lay her down the couch that was facing Zach's bed; I wiped her tears with my thumb as I caress her angelic face; I can tell her she's still mad as she turned sideways and sobbed once again.

I wanted to kiss her; to make her feel how much I love her and how sorry I was for everything. There's no words to express how sorry am I, not only for her but with her parents. I promised them to look after her, and I promised her to love her eternally but what the fuck have I done?

I just want to hold her tight tonight and never let go.

Without saying anything; I lay next to her and wrapped my arms around her waist, my hand was searching for hers and as I found it I entwined my fingers to hers and whispered

"Lily C. Rabe; I'm sorry, Everything that I've done behind your back is wrong but believe me with this... no words can describe how much I love you...I don't want to see you like this. I would do everything and anything to make you happy again, this will never happen again... I promise..."

I gently place a soft kiss on her neck before I rested my forehead on her shoulder as I held her tight and closed my eyes

"Sarah." She calls out in a weak shaky voice.

I felt her move; turning around facing me. I opened my eyes and lifted my face to look at her and as I did. Her lips crashed into mine, and a wave of emotions flooded me; I wanted to make her feel how much I truly love her; I kissed her back in the most gentle and passionate way possible.

She wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me closer, giving me such passionate kisses telling me that *You are mine*

She gently broke the kiss leaving my lower lip with a gentle bite as she did; she rested her forehead against mine; both of us were breathing fast, trying to recover the oxygen we lost from the kisses we shared.

I felt her hand massaging the nape of my neck; as she looked at me with those alluring blue eyes.

"Sarah, Why do I love you so much?... I love you so much that sometimes... it hurts It... Hurts so bad but I can't.... I can't get myself to get mad at you.." She spoke gently and breathily, trying to mask her cracking voice as she does.

I hushed her; trying to stop her from crying once again.

I ran my fingers across her lips; and caressed her face as she slowly closes her eyes, and before she goes to sleep; she still manage to whisper

"I love you Sarah Catherine Paulson."

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A/N: Told you everything's gonna be ayyyeee okayy~

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PS: I'd probably end this fanfic after 2 more Chapters. :)

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BTW: The Sequel of this Fanfic is undercover (It's dark, but It's kinda fun to read) :) If you haven't check it out yet... well... go ahead and check it out. :) I'm starting another fanfic. "Fangs & Spells" my addiction to both TVD and AHS lead me to write a fucking Coven fic with vampires and shit in them. Of course there'll be foxxay, and i'm also trying to incorporate *Nian* then <Mily (Milo Ventimigila and Lily Rabe)> Complex story but... yeah... I was actually planning for an Imagine for coven but... Nope.... people might think i'm copying writing styles so... no. hahaha I'd keep that to myself. :'))

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