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Cry for help || JJ

SELF HARM WARNING

today i was planning on going to jj's house. he's been really down the last three days and i know something is up. hes drinking more than usual and he's hardly around. the rest of the pogues were all at the mainland doing god knows what, so it was just me at the chateau.

i threw on a white cropped tank top, shorts, and my converse. i brushed my teeth, curled my hair and did my makeup.

i had to walk to his house cus the twinkie was gone but its okay because its a pretty close walk. each time i go to j's house i text him to make sure its safe to come in, but this time he didnt answer. which is strange because he always has his phone on him.

i started to worry so i went in without any hesitation. i walked up the stairs and down the hallway to his bedroom. when i opened the door i ran over to him and i broke into tears.

he had a blade beside him covered in blood. he had slits all up his arms with blood dripping. when he saw me he started crying hardly.

"oh my god jj, " i cried while holding his head in my hands

his body was so faint.

"i-im sorry." he managed to get out.

"hey no, baby please dont be sorry, okay? im gonna go grab my phone and then were gonna go to the hospital together okay?" i asked but he didnt answer. his eyes were closing

"jj!? baby please wake up. please!" i cried

i grabbed my phone and dialled john B's number, tears flooded my eyes and my vision was blurry.

"hey, whats up y/n?" john be asked when he picked up the phone

"i-i need you to get to j's house right now. he hurt himself a-and hes not waking up and i-i dont know what the fuck to do. just please hurry." i cried

"im coming now" he said before hanging up.

i gently shook him to try to wake him up. "JJ please wake up. i love you. you cant leave. please i-i cant do this without you. i promise when you wake up we will talk about what happened and i will make sure you get all the help you need." i held his hand up to my face and i kept kissing them.

it felt like hours crying for jj until i heard the twinkie pull up and JB running up the stairs.

"what the hell happened!?" he asked running over to him

"i-i walked in on him like this. please we have to get him to a hospital. i cried

JB helped me get jj down the stairs and into the twinkie. his body was layed across the back seats and his head in my lap. i kissed him repeatedly while begging him to wake up.

i dont think ive ever cried so hard in my life. when we got to the hospital JB ran into the building and yelled for help.

"someone fucking help us!" he yelled

doctors came rushing out with a stretcher and put JJ on it. they ran him into the building on the stretcher with me holding onto the side bar.

"whats his name?" the doctor asked

"its j-jj maybank." i answered

they ran him into the emergency room but didnt let me in.

"Im sorry ma'am but no one is allowed past this point. you can wait for him in the waiting room." they said.

i began to panic. i slid down the wall and sat on the ground with my knees tucked into my chest. i was crying harder than ever. my breathing sped up and my vision was getting blurry.

"hey hey y/n, just breathe okay? hes gonna be just fine and he'll recover quick." jb said while trying to calm me down. he walked me over to a chair and we sat there waiting.

a few hours passed and a nurse came walking in.

"are you guys jj's family?" she asked. and we nodded jumping up

"he's ready to have visitors, but only one person is allowed in right now." she said

"y/n, you go. he needs you more than he needs me." john b stated

"thank you" i mouthed to him.

i followed the nurse  to jj's room and i sat on the chair by his bed.

i couldnt help but cry. he didnt look like himself. i will never forgive myself for not noticing what he was going through.

i held his hand in my hand while i kissed it repeatedly. i was talking to his unconscious body when i suddenly felt his hand squeeze mine.

"jj!?" i whispered

"hey babygirl" he mumbled

i jumped out of my chair and i gave him a huge kiss.

"jj you scared the hell out of me. i cant live without you. " i whispered with tears forming in my eyes.

he moved over to the side of his bed, and he patted the empty side signalling for me to lay beside him.

"but youre hurt." i mumbled

" i dont care. i need you." he whispered.

and with that, i hopped in the bed with him. my head was on his chest and he was kissing my head.

"i-im sorry y/n. i just couldnt take it anymore." he cried. his voice cracked. i could tell he was in pain.

"hey baby, dont apologise." i said while looking up at him. "what happened baby?" i added on.

"dad came home. but he didnt hurt me. he just kept talking about how i will never be enough for you. and that i cant offer what you want in life. you deserve better, baby girl. hell if we have kids together, what if i end up like my dad?" he cried

"woah woah jj. you will never end up like him. he is a piece of shit. you are much better than him. i want to have a family with you. you will be the best dad a kid could ever ask for. and jj, i dont want anything other than you. you are the best boyfriend anyone could have. you are more than enough. you are my home. my lifeline. all i want is you." i cried

"i love you." he whispered

"i love you, jj." i repeated back

"always and forever." he said

"always and forever." i confirmed.