The Same History

Chapter 6

It's been three days since I've been here, or rather seven days. I've had my own room for three days. Today is day four and I hope today will be more exciting. The last three days haven't been very exciting. I agreed to learn to control my wolf, but instead to practice fighting and transforming. Let's relax. We were doing yoga or whatever. It was so boring, I almost fell asleep. In addition, I had the feeling no one wants me here. Wanda who's really nice and Steve always pick me up. Natasha did something to me, too. But as soon as I tried to ask the rest, she didn't have time or avoided me. I last saw Bucky three days ago. He had brought the letter he was supposed to get. It was on my bedside table the next morning, but it wasn't there. Steve said he had something to do in Brooklyn. I think he's avoiding me. He's not here because of me.

So many thoughts and I don't know where to go with them. I was lying in bed staring at the ceiling. Until there was a knock on the door. She opened and Wanda looked in. "Good morning, get ready, we'll go right away." I looked at her confusedly. "How do we start right away? Do you mean breakfast or what?" she laughed slightly. "No, we're going shopping." I totally forgot, she told me yesterday or the day before. I nodded and then got up. Wanda went into her room because she wasn't finished either. I took a shower and then put on the clothes that were still in the closet. A t-shirt and jeans, very spectacular. Just as I walked to the door and opened it. Wanda came out of hers, too. "Perfect timing, Y/N." she said with a smile. I also had to smile and then we went for breakfast.

Only Natasha, Steve, Wanda and me sat at the table. I didn't even have to ask, because the others aren't coming until I'm gone. I already felt bad about it, but Steve always told me they all needed time. "Did you read the letter?" Natasha asked and I nodded. "I gave it to Steve yesterday, if you want to see it." I said and continued eating my pancake. So I have to say, the food here is a lot better than Hydra. "What was in there?" "Uhm." more I just couldn't say, what was in there again. "Not much. Only that my mom had problems with me when she was pregnant and it didn't look good for her. That's why she wanted to write the letter so that I could find my father someday." Natasha drank her coffee and nodded slightly at me. "No information on who he might be?" "Yes, so he's supposed to be a billionaire and a genius. Brown hair and his last name starts with an S. If that helps, 'cause I can't do anything with it." I said and looked at the pancake plate again. I took a few more. "You're thinking of the same person, aren't you?" Steve Natasha asked. I looked at both of them expectantly. "Which person? Do you know who that is?"I asked now. "I don't think it's Tony. How could they have gotten his genes?" she drank another sip of coffee. Steve ate his roll, and Wanda ate pancakes, too. "Can't be from the saliva. Maybe they let him take a drink or someplace where he drank out." said Wanda now. "That's right, I haven't thought of that yet." Steve and Natasha figured out the best way to tell Tony. But I kept eating my pancakes. Until I felt a little sick.

The three of us were in the car driving towards New York City. We didn't talk during the drive. Not until Natasha parked, she said. "You stay close to us. Not because we're afraid you'll run away. But if one of Hydra finds you, we can help you." I nodded and smiled slightly. They also said that I can choose what I want because they pay. I've never been shopping and let myself be carried away. There were so many beautiful things. We were now in the eighth store and I already had six or seven big bags. We also put some in the car. Natasha and Wanda also have three bags full each. I walked through the rows and looked at the clothes. When I looked up to see where the other two were, I saw them a little further away from me. I turned and looked on. Until I was pulled aside. I was just about to hit the killer, so I heard. "Hey, Y/N. It's me, Liam." I looked at him and laughed. "Oh, hey." He looked around and then looked at me again. "What are you doing here? You know your mission and shopping isn't if you've forgotten." He looks slightly angry. "Yes, I know her and that's part of it. I'm supposed to get the trust. So some of them already trust me." I said proudly, but he ruined everything. "You shall have the confidence of James Buchanan Barnes. The others, too, but not like this. He's more important, Y/N."I know what to do. And I know Bucky, too." now I was annoyed. Of course he wasn't satisfied with my performance, I was Y/N and not Violet. "Bucky? Who is that?" he asked confusedly. "This is James Buchanan Barnes. Everyone there calls him Bucky." He nodded and then handed me a small can. "What is that?" I made no attempt to take it. "These are your new pills. They should be enough for the mission. One month, one every day." I took them and put them in my pocket. "Wait a minute. Are you spying on me?" I looked at him slightly angry. "Me? No, I just had to bring you your pills." He said that sarcastically. I just twisted my eyes. "Y/N?" Wanda called me. "Shit, you have to go. Now!" I said, turning away to get away from him. "Y/N, think about the mission. You only have a month. If you screw this up"... he said seriously. "I know what happens next, Liam." I said knowingly. I don't want this, so it has to work. I have to prove I can. "Y/N?" I heard them shouting again. I got up and went out of line. "Yes?" I said. When she saw me, she smiled relieved. "Sorry, I dropped something and I picked it up."Not bad, I thought you were lost in the pile of clothes." she said laughing and I had to laugh too. I turned around again and saw Liam walk away. He's gonna tell Hydra what he saw, and they're not gonna like it. I know that. But what shall they do now but wait? "I don't know about you, but I'm hungry." Natasha said and I agreed. "Me, too."Why are you still standing here?" Wanda asked. Natasha and I laughed. We paid for the clothes and then went to dinner. We didn't come back until the evening. We were on the road all day. I've seen so much and got so many clothes. Ten bags were mine and four were Natasha. Wanda had six full bags to close. We women walked back and forth three times until all the bags were in our rooms. I was just about to start clearing things out when Natasha asked, "What are you doing? Don't you want to watch a movie with all of us?" I shook my head. "No, thank you. I'm starting to admit all this and I think I'm going to sleep right away." She just nodded and wished me a good night.

Now I was alone and started to clear. After two hours I changed and when I was about to put my pants down, the can fell out. Of course it worked. I collected them all and was about to close them when I saw a small piece of paper. I took this and folded it apart. He's from Mala, she's been like a mother to me. She belongs to the Red Room and trained me there. I checked the note.

"Hey little one,
I'm sure you'll be surprised to hear from me. I hear you're with the Avengers, and I hope you're using this as a chance to get out of all this. If you haven't thought about it yet, do it now. I want you to have a good life and not die as an experiment. So please take this chance and leave everything else behind.
Dear Mala."

No, she never wrote that. Someone else must have written it. She never betrays the Red Room, it's her home, her home. I tore up the note and threw it in the garbage. I also threw myself into bed and cried until I fell asleep.

I heard music and it got louder and louder. Wolf's hearing is really stupid at moments like this. I was awake so I could do what I wanted. So I got up and took a shower. After that, an outfit of the new clothes put me on and left my hair open. The music was gone. What did they do? I went over to Wanda's, knocked on her door and waited for her to open. Nothing, great. I've knocked ten times and called her, but no one answers. Her door was closed, too. I couldn't have noticed that sooner. Natasha and Steve, I could still look. I turned around and ran just two steps when someone called me. "Y/N?" So I turned back and saw Sam. "Hey." He looked at me skeptically. "Where are you going?" "I was looking for Wanda and wanted to look for Steve or Natasha. Because I"... I said quickly and was interrupted by him. "They're not here. The three of you are on a mission, which I have to go on in a minute."And then what are you doing here?" I was confused. "To get you, because Bucky's watching over you, but he's not here yet, so I'm here." I nodded and he tells me to follow him.