The Same History

Chapter 9

"What's the point, Sam? She just said she didn't know anything about it." "Who knows what else she's hiding, maybe she's here on a mission!" "Sam's right Bucky. She could still be a Hydra soldier. We found one more thing."

I slowly woke up and heard a few voices talking. "Because of this file, we were supposed to go on the mission. But we found two more, among others the one where the experiment of Y/N is in it." said a female voice. I can't place her. Wanda or Natasha? I tried to open my eyes. I managed, but my vision was blurry for now. "Hey, are you okay?" Wanda asked me, she was the first one I saw and also after blinking a few times I saw sharply again. I just nodded and sat up. "Is she awake?" asked Steve. "Yes." said Vision. "What happened?" I asked quietly. "You must have passed out after we asked you about the experiment.'' The experiment I didn't know about. "Ah, yes." said I knowingly. "So Y/N, why are you really here? There's nothing right about your story front and center.'' said Sam and I looked at everyone who had just entered the living room as well. Bucky was also there and looked at me. But somehow all I saw was disappointment in his eyes. "Y/N?" asked Steve. I looked at him and I realized that everything was too much for me. Everyone was staring at me and I felt overwhelmed. So I did what I always did, run.

I jumped up and ran out. I heard my name, but I did not react. My vision became blurry again, but this was due to my tears. I never cried in front of people, always alone. Because that is a sign of feelings and feelings are weaknesses that no one needs. But this is always exploited. I didn't know where I was running to, but ended up at a door that took me to the roof. Air. Fresh air. I breathed in and out deeply. Until I kept running to the edge and stopped at the edge and sat down. I watched straight out of the sun as it set and cried. I didn't know what to do now. A time passed and I kept hearing that the Avengers were looking for me. The sun had almost set and that's when I heard the door open. I didn't turn around, just looked at the sun. Footsteps that got closer and closer until the person next to me stopped. "Hey, is this seat free?" I was surprised, he didn't even talk to me like that anymore. I nodded slightly, not looking at him. Bucky sat down next to me and kept silent for the time being like me. After what felt like hours, which was probably only a few minutes, I wanted to break the silence. But he was faster.

"Why did you run up here?" he asked. "I don't know, I didn't even know where I was running to," I said, looking down. "You don't have to talk about it if you don't want to. I know it's not easy... Unless you'd rather talk to someone else, then..." I interrupted Bucky. "No." He looked at me in surprise and I looked at him sadly but seriously. Then to look back down. The building is already very tall. "I...I'm..." I wanted to start. "Hey, it's okay. It's okay if you're not ready." I nodded. "I lied to you guys..."

Bucky took me in his arms after I said that. "It's not your fault, doll." I felt something in my stomach when he said that. What do you call that, butterflies maybe....