The Same History

Chapter 7

"Sam, we have nothing to eat."Then go and buy yourself some." I looked at him with a look that says you are serious now. "Oh, yes, you can't." He laughed. I was annoyed by him. I've been in a room with him for ten minutes and I'm already annoyed. I made myself a cup of coffee and then sat down at the table. Sam did it to me. "Hey, sorry. I think Bucky's gonna have breakfast or shopping with you." I said nothing, because I was thinking. I forgot something. The pill. So I got up and ran to my room. All I heard was Sam calling after me. Oops anyway, once a rule is broken, isn't a time, is it? I ran back just as quickly and put on an innocent smile. "Sorry, I thought I left the water on, but it was off." and he just laughed. "Bucky should be here so slow. Otherwise, the others have to do it on their own." he said, but I think he was talking to himself. However, my curiosity was too great and I asked, "What can I do on my own?" He looked at "Nothing a Hydra soldier should know." and smiled at me. I looked away annoyed. Then I heard footsteps. I think it's Bucky, and in fact it was him. I looked at him smiling, but he looked neutral and also annoyed. "What did you have to do that you're only here now, Buck?" Sam asked annoyed. "Things." he says and looked at me, then back to Sam. "Just watch her now. She's really annoying because she's hungry." he said as he walked. "I'm not. So annoying, I'm already hungry." I said. Sam was gone, and now I was alone with Bucky again. He looked at me. "Well, let's get something to eat, 'cause as far as I know, there's nothing left." I nodded slowly but asked, "Wait, how do you know that? You haven't been here the last few days!" he laughed slightly "I have my sources." I had to smile, that was cute. He's pointing out, and I'm following him. There was a motorcycle outside and he was walking towards it. "We're going with that?" I was surprised and surprised. "Yes, is that a problem?" I shook my head violently. He laughed and handed me a helmet. I thought it was so cool. I'd ride a motorcycle again. I felt like a little child who just got candy. I smiled so hard that Bucky asked, "Are you all right?" I just nodded grinning. I was never allowed to ride it, but Liam and Ruby did it a few times. Secretly, until it came out, and then we all got into trouble. You said a wolf can't drive it. I never understood why this is so."Sure? You smile as if you had been given your favorite candy." I had to laugh a little and he sat on it. "It's just that I was never allowed to do it and did it secretly a few times until they found out and then I never rode a motorcycle again." He grinned, "Well, let's do forbidden things." I didn't think the idea was so bad. I sat behind him and as he left I held on to one shoulder. But as he drove faster, I grabbed him with both arms and my hands were on his stomach. We drove for a long time, we didn't really need that long, but it was nice. We drove fast, very fast and it was so much fun. You forget all your worries and worries. The race as a wolf used to be just like that. I can't do it now.

We stopped in front of a small cafe. It looked cute, small but nice. I just followed him and when we were looking for a seat inside, a young woman greeted him. We sat in a corner, from there you can watch all the people really well. The young woman came up to us and smiled nicely. "Hey, Bucky. How are you doing? We haven't seen each other for a long time." she handed Bucky the menu and me as well. But she looked at me as if she wanted to kill me. She quickly looked back at Bucky and listened to him as he looked at the map. "Hey Lyla, good and there's a reason for it." That's all he said and I realized she wanted to say more, but would call her then. When she was gone, I looked at the map. It occurred to me I didn't have any money. "Uhm, Bucky, I don't want to annoy you or anything." He looked up and asked me. "But I don't have any money with me." He laughed lightly. "I'll invite you, it's all right." I had to smile right away. "Thank you." He also smiled and then looked at the map again, just like I did. I felt totally watched and when I looked up, I saw the young woman. She's watching me closely. "If you've found something, we can order." Bucky gave me a friendly look. He was really cute. No, don't think so. I shook my head slightly and looked again. "I think I'll have a waffle with chocolate. And you?"I asked him and watched him. He was still looking at the map and it looked like he was thinking. "Uhm, I'll have a sandwich." I nodded and he looked at the young woman again. She understood what he wanted and came to us. "I think you want to order?" she just looked at Bucky and he nodded. "One waffle with chocolate and a sandwich, as always." He smiled at her, but I saw it was a fake smile. Not like he did to me. She also smiled, but instead of leaving she asked. "What's this with the girl?" "Woman!" said Bucky, looking at her slightly annoyed. "A date or what?" He didn't say anything and she looked at me. I had to stop laughing because she needed to practice the 'I hate you' or 'I'll kill you' look. "Come on, Bucky. What's this? Are you trying to make me jealous?" she got angry. "Yes and no."To what, yes and no?" she asked louder and I was only annoyed. How can you be so stupid? Before he could answer, I said. "Yes, it's a date and no, he doesn't want to make you jealous!" I growled. But I didn't realize it until after I said that. She and he both looked at me. He just smiled and nodded. She left in a rage. But I only realized what I had just said. This isn't a date, is it? No, we don't know each other. But dates are for getting to know each other. Fuck, what did I do?

I didn't say anything. We were both sitting quietly at the table. We both thought. So that's what it looked like with him. I thought about what I did. I should get the trust from him, but not like this! Ahhh, this guy is killing me. I don't even know him for four days and he already twists my whole head. "Everyone okay, Y/N?" Bucky looked at me worried. "Yes, why do you ask?" I looked at him confused. "Because you looked so worried. If there's anything, you can talk to me." he said with a smile. I smiled at him and lost myself in his blue eyes. They look so beautiful, like a shining blue sea. Ahhh, no. "What is this?" I asked him directly. But he just looked at me confused. "I mean you told the woman it was a date. Is that it for you?" I kept getting quieter and I kind of lost the courage to ask that. He took a deep breath and didn't look at me anymore. "I want to meet you, but this isn't a date." He didn't look at me until the word "date." The look on his face revealed everything. He can't make this personal. "I understand", I said in a broken voice, without wanting to. "No, Y/N that's not what I mean..." I interrupted him. "Okay, I wouldn't trust myself either. After all, I was a Hydra soldier, how can you trust one like that?" I know I just went too far to play that card. But I have to trust him and I don't have much time for that, told me my feeling. "I know what it's like. You're lonely and no one can understand you. But I do. I have experienced it myself. Thanks to the help of my friends, I managed to get out of there. Hydra can't control me anymore and I'm going to help you make it work. But you have to let me too." He kept eye contact the whole time. Somehow I believed him. "But you have to start trusting me first. Before you tell me I don't trust you. I showed you that I trust you by eating out with you." I didn't get it right. I have to trust him. I don't trust anyone. Everyone betrays me or hurts me. That's how I learned it. Trust is weakness. "You have to trust me and I don't trust you. At least I can kill you right now!" I said coolly. "But you didn't, and you won't, because you had the opportunity a few days ago." I looked at him confused. I had the chance. "But you were, and so was I. We were too distracted from each other." He figured it out, too? Did he just really say that? "I... um..." Bucky was just grinning at me. "Well, I hope Lyla wasn't too rude to them?" "No, no", he said with a smile to the new waitress. I sat there and was overwhelmed what to say about his testimony.