Just Keep Driving - Jeremiah Fisher

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When Jeremiah and I got home from the pool we entered the house and it was like a hurricane made its way through. The scene was actually quite bizarre because the house was always immaculate. That wasn't the only strange thing we turned up on, Belly was rushing past us with tears in her eyes.

"I'm going to go check up on her" I said to Jeremiah, he gave me a nod and whispered I'll see you later.

When Jeremiah disappeared I quickly made my way up to Belly's room. I could hear sniffles from the other side of the room so I made my way inside without a knock.

"Go away Conrad" Belly said without even looking in my direction.

"Rachel actually" I said awkwardly waving when her head snapped in my direction. "You want to talk about it?"

She nodded her head yes while more tears escaped her eyes. I quickly made my way next to her on the ground and wrapped my arms around her shoulders. She started to cry a little bit more before she worked up the courage to tell me what was making her feel this way.

"I broke up with Cameron today. I didn't feel that spark with him. I wanted to so badly because he is an amazing person inside and out, but my heart never wanted him the same way I want ..."

"Conrad" I said finishing her sentence which made her cry out a few more tears

"We almost kissed last night, and as awful as it sounds Cam wasn't even a thought in the moment. Just to know Conrad felt the same way made me feel excitement and anticipation. Something I never felt with Cameron, ever"

"Is your breakup with Cameron really what's got you in the dumps?" I asked knowing there was something else that happened that had her so upset.

"No, no it's not. When I got home I was so excited to see Conrad, and by his texts this morning I thought he would feel the same. He didn't. He treated last night like nothing ... like I meant nothing. He's been doing this the entire summer I don't know why I let myself think today would be any different"

"Belly, I think Conrad is going through something right now that none of us could understand. Please just give him time, I know he feels the same way, it's just going to take a little bit to allow himself to accept it."

Belly looked like she wanted to ask me more on the topic which if she did I think I would break and tell her everything I knew. Though she asked something else I wasn't ready to answer.

"What's going on with you and Jeremiah?" She asked

"We are just friends" I said laughing awkwardly

"Sure "friends"" Belly said using air quotes

"Shut up!" I said laughing "Why don't you call Taylor, I'm sure she would like to be filled in on the deets"

"Ew please never say that again" Belly laughed as she reached for her phone.

***

It was hard to really wrap my head around the fact that my mom was here in Cousins. She's been out a lot with Laurel and Susannah which was a good sign. It means whatever happened at the Fourth of July party was now water under the bridge.

Today she was out with the duo longer than expected and when she got home she was crossed out of her mind. Poor woman couldn't even walk in a straight line, I'm surprised she was able to get herself an uber home.

She was now sleeping on the living room couch with a little blanket I laid over her. She looked so peaceful that I didn't want to wake her to tell her dinner was ready. She has been through a lot, and even more now with her best friend on death row.