Brown eyes

The devils deal

I woke up the next morning and laid there lifeless staring at the ceiling and thought about what I was doing that day. I sat up and picked up my phone and seen a text message from my sister April that said "what you doing?" I hesitated to reply but I still did. " I just woke up, why?" I said then put my phone down on my nightstand. I had chosen not to eat again and I didn't mind it because that just meant to loose weight so there was no complaints from me and all I had to do was lie to my mom and my aunt say I did eat. I was just about to go back to sleep when my phone dinged and I picked it up and looked . It was April again " well you wanna hang out with me and my Alfonso?" She asked and I hesitated and stared at the word "hang" like it was my life on the line or something. So i pros and cons the situation.

Pros
Getting out of the house
Getting light
Being around April
Talking to people
And getting away from my sibling and mom and aunt.
Eat
Not cry

Cons
Having people leave me alone
Cry
Sleep
Not eat
Stay away from people

But sadly the pros outweighed the cons and then I texted April back " I guess but I don't really want to" she ending up coming to get me anyway despite the hint of me not wanting to go.
When she had came and got me I didn't realize she had brought T with her who is the guy she introduced me to the night before and I know she purposely did that and honestly I was pissed. I was walking to her car when I seen him and I was livid but I couldn't do much bc she was talking to our mother.
I took at deep breath and got in, I was silent then T said " hey" I looked at him and said hey back and looked at my phone. My sister finally got in the car and broke the silence, " by the was kristy I brought T" she said in a happy tone, " I see" I said with irritation but kept it mild. Then we left the driveway and April started talking to boogie and T, but I kept silent for the most part.
I finally asked April where we were going and she said that we are going to get food first and I agreed so I put in my headphones and look at the scenery that the window offered me and just relaxed, but I could fake the eyes that I knew were on me and I knew who they belonged too which made it more annoying. So once me got food and ate T started making small talk with me and the moment he started I knew I was gonna get mad. I was not mad at him but I was mad at the fact I had to deal with someone talking to me and trying so hard when I didn't want to talk to anyone honestly.
After sticking my headphones in my ears I ignored everyone in the car, not because I was being rude it was honestly because I was just so sad I couldn't be happy but I had heard people say god works in mysterious ways but then I thought maybe the devil did to, so I was keeping my eyes peeled and hoping that this wasn't a mistake.