His [COMPLETED]

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"I'm sorry if he didn't tell you sooner, pero talagang ikakasal na siya," Sabi ni Samuel sa akin, eyes full of sadness.

"You love him huh.." he smiled sadly, "I'm so sorry. Next year sila ikakasal. They were engaged ever since they're a kid, it's a family tradition thing. Arrange marriage," He continued.

"Arrange marriage?" Pinahid ko ang aking mga luha, "T-that means there's a possibility that-"

"He loves her, Farah. Jasmine Mondriguez. They were a highschool couple but they broke up when one girl created some stupid shitty story about my brother. Isa ako sa mga kasabwat, I fucked some girl at pinalabas nilang si Denzel yun. Farah, you never knew how much my brother cried every day and night. After that day, Jasmine disappeared without a trace, even her own family doesn't know where she is until this year..." He sighed. "Bumalik siya. And my brother is willing to do anything for her. Farah, he's also obsessed with Jasmine."

Sumakit ulit ang dibdib ko. Sa sobrang sakit that I took out the pills and ininom ito.

Hindi ko man gustong marinig iyon ngunit kailangan, upang magising ako sa aking kahibangan. Did I really hoped for us? How pathetic of me to assume that there would be something.

Mukhang naapektuhan din ang utak ko.

"Farah what-" He stood up. "What did you just drink?"

I signed him to stop from walking towards me. "It's vitamins kapag nahihilo ako," I said, "My therapist gave it to me," I lied again.

Wala namang punto kung itatago ko 'to. Kaya bakit ako nagkakaganito? Hindi ko alam. May saltik na ata talaga ang utak ko. Nakakatawa. Gusto kong sampalin ang sarili ko ngayon.

It's a white lie, I do hope the doctor who took me in didn't tell them about my illness. Buti nalang that doctor who handled me when I was in the hospital knew me, he knows how much I value to keep this a secret.

I heard him heaved a deep sigh at umupo ulit.

"I- I really didn't know I fell in love..." I uttered after minutes of calming myself down.

Hindi ko alam kung dahil bato sa ininom ko, but I can't help but say these things.

The image of Maria is still playing in my head. When I was in the hospital, she stared at me all the time. Was that a paranormal experience? A hallucination?

In the end, it doesn't matter. If it's a hallucination or not, it's just a proof that I can't escape from the past and I'll forever be tied up in the darkness.

But why...

The darkness that once swallowed me, the person who made me go through hell.

Why am I opening up my feelings to you? The one who opened up my wounds and left me a deep, fresh cut I have to endure until this day? Why am I getting comfort from you?

Am I losing my mind?

"It's okay. Hey I want to give this to you," May kinuha siya sa kaniyang bulsa, dahil medyo madilim, hindi ko masyadong kita kung ano, "Can you accept this? It's like a symbolism for my change."

Singsing. Now, I can finally see it clearly nang nilapit niya sa akin ito. It's a butterfly ring.

"Butterfly?" I raised my eyebrow at kinuha ang singsing. Sinuri ko ito nang mabuti.

"Yeah, it means you'll be free Safahara."

"But butterflies are beautiful, and so people want to catch them and imprisoned them, isn't that right?" I raised my hands when I finally inserted the ring in my middle finger.

"Well yeah.." He said awkwardly.

"And butterflies dies easily. Unlike birds, unlike other insects- butterflies are attracted to flowers. And we never know if that flower may be dangerous."

"You're right. What am I thinking? I should've choose a better gift." Kukunin na sana niya ang singsing na nakasuot sa aking kamay ngunit iniwas ko ito.

"I like it." I said.

He seemed surprise.

"But that's.." Napakamot siya ng kaniyang ulo kaya natawa nalang ako.

"Yeah.." With this ring, I'll forever be reminded of what happened. I'll bring the memories with me until I die.

I'm tired of wanting to forget them. Maybe it's time to live with them. Wala din namang magbabago. Wala din namang mangyayare.

"By the way, did your real parents reached out?" Samuel asked.

"Nah." I groggily said, "It doesn't matter. I cut ties with them. Whoever they are, they're not worth of my time."

I stared at Samuel, he was looking at me too with his eyes looks so sad. I stared at those deep dark brown eyes that was once consumed by evil.

"Stop staring." Bigla siyang umiwas ng tingin.

"Are you shy?" I laughed at him. Bumalik siya ng titig sa akin and this time, his eyes are more serious.

"No," Kalma niyang sabi, "But If you keep on staring, I might kiss you."

I almost laughed. Maybe I am drunk, maybe I'll regret this after and maybe I'll be disgusted of myself if I made this decision.

But something keeps on whispering in me, something is pushing my limit.

So I said those words I never imagined I'd say.

"Kiss me then."

Nagulat siya sa sinabi ko. Nakahawak parin siya sa singsing na ibibigay niya sa akin. I really can't see what it looks like but it glimmers on the moon's light.

"What-"

"I said kiss me then." Tumayo ako at lumapit sakaniya. I lowered my head, I can smell the alcohol from his breathe.

"P-pero.." He gulped and his eyes went down on my lips.

"Pero what?" I teased, "You love me right? Prove it. Kiss me."

He closed his eyes, "You-you're drunk. P-please sit down, I still need to prove myself you-"

I kissed him. Just a simple kiss, but it was long. We were staring at each other, we didn't close our eyes.

He held my face and he slid his tongue inside. I closed my eyes.

The moon was shining brightly that night as I kiss this Psychopath back.