His [COMPLETED]

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Disclaimer: The illness that this chapter will talk about is 50% real but I added fiction in this.

"Your Ischemic heart disease is getting worst Miss De Leon. Are you getting stressed lately?" Bungad sa akin ng doctor, "Please do take care of yourself. Look." Tinuro niya ang aking braso, "There's a bruise now, and it's just the start. If you keep on going with your stress factors, it can lead to serious injury. Are you drinking the meds I give you?" He added.

I sighed. Hindi ko aakalain na magiging ganito ka seryoso at ka-komplikado itong sakit ko. Noon, akala ko normal heartburn lamang ito. Ngunit habang tumatagal, mas lalong lumalala.

Tahimik si Samuel na nakikinig sa amin. He's just sitting beside my hospital bed, looking so lost and hurt. Alam kong nagugulat ito sa kaniyang naririnig.

Ang akala ko rin naman ay matatago ko ito habang buhay, ngunit napagpasyahan ko rin na sabihin ito sa mga taong alam kong dadalo sa sarili kong libing.

"Doc, I'm so tired." Paumanhin ko sa doctor.

Na-gets niya naman agad ata ang aking sinabi. Ngumiti ito ng malamlam. "I understand, call me if you need anything." He said before leaving.

Silence. All silence. Nakakabingi ang katahimikan. Para akong nilalamon nito. Hindi naman ibig sabihin noon na hindi ako sanay, sadyang awkward lang dahil alam kong nandito si Samuel.

I was about to doze off when Samuel suddenly spoke.

"May sakit ka?" His voice is traced with sadness. "Kailan pa Farah?" Naiiyak niyang tanong.

Tinitigan ko itong mabuti. Namumula ang mukha at mukhang may luha na bumubuo sa mga mata nito. Ang Samuel na aking nakilala noon ay malayo sa Samuel na nasa harapan ko ngayon. Para itong bata na ninakawan ng laruan.

"2 years ago. Nagpa treatment naman ako," I answered, "But fate plays tricks... So I guess, this will forever be with me," Mapait kong ani.

"You can't get cured-"

"I can't Samuel..."

Yumuko siya dahil sa aking sinabi. Akala ko ay tapos na ito ngunit may tanong pa pala.

"Is it because of me?" He asked once again, "Those things I did-"

"No Sam.." I smiled and patted his head. "It's not your fault."

Napahagulhol siya at kinuha ang aking kamay, "Will you live forever?"

"There's no such thing as forever." Tawa tawa kong sabi, "I can't live long enough though." I added.

That night, Samuel can't stop crying. He stayed with me all night. His sobs won't stop while kissing my hands.

Nakakatawa lang, I was so furious when I found out he lied to me but I was also a liar. I'm always lying to everybody.

I even lied to the man I love.

**

Nagising akong may tulog na Samuel sa tabi. I looked at him, he looks peaceful. His hands are intertwining mine.

My hands creeped up on his face and I caressed it.

For a moment I thought it was Denzel but reality hits me. He's going to marry Jasmine now.

Why am I so patethic?

Ganito ba talaga ako hanggang sa mamatay? Pathetic and hopeless.

Humiga ako ulit at napaiyak.

I just want to experience happiness for the last time.

"Ischemic means that an organ, specifically her heart is not getting enough blood and oxygen. Ischemic heart disease, also called coronary heart disease (CHD) or coronary artery disease, is the term given to heart problems caused by narrowed heart (coronary) arteries that supply blood to the heart muscle." Pag eexplain ng doctor kay Samuel. "It cannot be cured, but there is a treatment." He added, "Every stroke ng pasyente, her lifespan will shortened. The patient will feel nausea, heartburn or pain, difficulty of breathing, random bruises everywhere and some senses might be lost."

"Will she live long?" Samuel asked. I was just staring at them while they're talking face to face, "Unfortunately, she cannot. She was diagnosed in that condition last year, this year or probably if there's a miracle, next year siguro she will..." The doctor took a glance on my side, "...die."

Right, I know it. I only have 2 years to live.

"P-pero ang treatment-"

"She's not willing to undergo any treatment anymore Mr. Elbanueba and we don't force our patients. She's just taking the meds I give her everytime her condition acts up."

Yes, meds. I lied to everyone and said it was vitamins galing sa therapist ko.

"Is there something we can do?" Desperadong tanong ni Samuel sa doctor. Umiling ito.

**

"Magpapasko na bukas." Masayang tugon ni Samuel, "I'm glad na ikaw ang kasama ko ngayong Christmas Eve." Inakbayan niya ako.

"Chansing ka ah." Tawa ko sakaniya.

Nandito kami ngayon sa bahay ko, it's been five days simula nung nasa hospital ako. Samuel never left my side every since then, lage akong chinecheck up, lagi akong minomonitor, he also cooks for me and almost do all the house chores.

Kulang nalang talaga dalhin niya lahat ng damit niya dito at dito na tumira.

Nasa balcony kami ngayon ng bahay ko, kumakain ng hapunan.

"Here have some," He puts a meat on my plate. "Kain ka ng marami."

I laughed, parang naging papa ko na to.

I still don't know where my parents are, or if they're still alive. I couldn't care less though, I'm happy with my life.

"Ikaw din." Binigyan ko siya ng broccoli. He hates broccoli pero I just wanna tease him.

Sumimangot naman siya kaya mas lalo akong natawa. Nagulat naman ako ng kinain niya ito.

"Oh akala ko ayaw mo ng broccoli?"

"Basta galing sa'yo, lahat gusto ko."

My face blushed. Nye, bat ako kinikilig?

"Oh bat ka umiiwas ng tingin? Na fa-fall ka na no?" Tukso niya sa akin.

Kumunot ang noo ko, "Asa!" Sa sobrang hiya nagisan ko siya ng dala dala kong kutsara.

"Aray! Di naman to mabiro."

Binelatan ko siya.

Everything looks normal, and it feels so good. The night breeze, the smell of the food in our table, our laughs and our nice talk.

I wish this can last forever.